I'm new here. My mom was diagnosed two years ago this December with pap/ cbd. The doctors told me she's 3 1/2 years into this. I see my mom changing all the times. She was walking pretty good with her u-step and now I'm seeing her having difficulty walking. Her eyes bother her so much and I don't know what to do for her. She's choking more, she has problems sleeping some nights she sleeps good and some aren't good, her speech is getting slower and harder for her to talk.The doctors have told me now is the time for her to do what ever she wants before she can't. I don't know if I'm in denial but I don't understand what I'm up against? It tears me up to see my mom changing. I'm so use to us going shopping having our ice cream at thrifts before we come home. Going to the grand kids football games together, Christmas programs.. and now it takes so much out of her just to go to Walmart. I want my mom..... people tell me to enjoy everyday with her while I can, sometimes I don't know how to. My mom laughs a lot when she does off the wall stuff , She says she can't cry so she laughs, I cry... she's getting tired more easily and really doesn't care to watch tv too much. And I miss that. I hate this disease and what it's doing. I've read a lot of the post and a lot I feel so bad cause your loved ones are much more advanced then my mom but then I realize that it won't be long before I'm there too. My heart goes out to everyone who suffers from this horrible disease and for all the family and caregivers out there going through this with them. God bless us all and may his love grace and mercy be upon us all..