My sister is in the hospital. My 16-year-old niece is staying with other relatives in town. I'm glad for her to have this opportunity to be away from the immediate pain and sadness at home and get some nurturing and attention by a loving, supportive lady who has three grown kids and a sense of humor and compassion. The MDs are observing my sis and trying different medications for her sleeplessness, anxiety, and pain. She has a nice walker now but continues to have falls. I cry several times a day and I wake up with a lightning bolt striking me in the face every morning. I'm so afraid she will die soon. Her birthday is just over a month away. She will be 51. Her body looks 85. She has visibly declined a great deal in the past month. I'm worried that if she continues at this rate she will not even make it to her birthday. Our whole extended family will be coming to visit at that time, including our other sister, brother and their families from a great distance. Right now I have a hard time believing prayer makes any difference. I've prayed for God to heal her and give her back to us the way she was. But that won't happen. I already know that. Prayers for comfort, strength, and courage? Prayers for gratitude? How do other people pray at times like this? It would be so wonderful if the Lord would allow her to come out of the hospital with medicine that works to ease her pain, anxiety, and sleeplessness. More of her old self could surely come back if she just felt a little better. More of all of our old selves could surely come back then too. I am sad for my brother-in-law.