I feel guilty for saying this but I am not enjoying my pregnancy at all, which I know is harsh when so many women would do anything to be in my position and may never get the chance.
I am 17 weeks, this will be my fourth child, I don't work, my two oldest children are at school and youngest at pre-school 3 mornings a week, on the days that the youngest is at pre-school I sleep for 1-2 hours I pick him up at 12 and then when he sleeps in the afternoon I sleep with him, I then get my older two from from school and struggle my way through after school activities, tea and bedtime when I normally fall asleep again, then I will wake up and try and do a few jobs around the house, I hardly speak to my partner he works long hours but is keeping the fridge and cupboards stocked up for me to save me going to the shops and doesn't make me feel at all bad for letting the house go or not making him a meal.
The nausea and sickness stopped at around 14 weeks the odd day I will be sick still but it's passes quick enough but the tiredness is really dragging me down, I knew I would get sickness I have with my other pregnancies but I can't remember ever feeling so completely exhausted almost dangerously tired at times, I feel too tired to drive, my kids are surviving but I feel like a rubbish mum to them the older ones have been so good with their little toddler brother, playing with him for hours at a time at the weekend while I lie on the couch.
Cause I am so tired I can't help feeling negative about how I will cope with another child, even though after I had my youngest I trained hard and ran a marathon 7 months after having him so don't normally have tiredness issues, none of my children have been good sleepers so I have had 9 years of broken sleep which I have also coped with.
I basically feel drugged the whole time, my bloods came back fine so I don't have anaemia.
Diet wise I am doing my best to eat a balanced diet.
Does anyone else suffer with type of tiredness and do you think I am doomed for the rest of the pregnancy to feel so rubbish!