I had my baby five weeks ago by c section and have been feeling really sad and out of it ever since. The c section was unexpected and I cried probably solidly for ten days after he was born and thought it was just baby blues. However, I can't seem to feel happy. I've read possible symptoms of PND and am worried I have it. I think my baby is sweet but I don't have that burning love for him. I feel nauseous but can't eat, tired but can't sleep, I am pretty surely baby wouldn't miss me if I was gone and most of all I feel like a horrible person for not loving being a mother, something I fought tooth and nail for as underwent IVF.
I'm a really happy and sunny person normally but I just can't pull myself out of this hole. I don't want to feel this way and feel that if I do have PND that I'm somehow a failure.
Please tell me I'm not alone in feeling this way?! I feel so lonely right now because everyone I know who's got kids is loving it and I just want life to go back to the way it was... I hate having these thoughts so much... Please help if you can. Thanks xx