I am completely new to this. I haven't ever looked on the Internet for help or support, but I am fed up with useless GP's!! I got diagnosed with PNI when my boy was only about 10 weeks old but my GP didn't do anything about it. Time passed and I became mentally ill. I took anti depressants and felt a million times better. So I came off them and I started university and things couldn't be better. However recently my mind has gone all wrong again. I've been feeling so alone, I'm not with the father of my child as we were so young, I have a new partner who is brilliant but I can't confide in him as I don't want him to think I'm crazy. I've been suffering about horrible thoughts about my son. I can't eat, sleep and as soon as I have these thoughts I gagging over the toilet. I feel sick even typing it, but I need help. I have researched this morning and I have realised its quite a common symptom for PNI and I'm not the only one suffering. How can I stop these thoughts and worries? Am I going crazy?? I would never hurt my child I love him so much so why do I have these terrible thoughts??