I have been fortunate to date getting to 5mg in about a year and a half without too much difficulty above the norm. But lately my emotions are more erratic than ever and I find myself more irritable and more sensitive and more vulnerable than I can remember. I've always have had a fairly obsessive approach to making decisions and the process can make me anxious, but have been able to sort through what was important and what I wanted and move on. Not so much these days. If I were my own patient I would say that I'm on the cusp of depression, or developing an anxiety disorder-- but my sleep is good, self worth ok, appetite ok.
My current stumbling block is about buying a car, of all things. My old Toyota is 14 years old, will start needing costly repairs and doesn't have the new safety features I think I should have at almost 77. I've reviewed our finances and know it is affordable. But instead of focusing on the positive aspects of things, I find myself hesitating to move forward for fear of making a mistake.
The details I'm obsessing about are unimportant. It's just the swings that are really painful. I wonder if anyone here has gone through this at this stage in their treatment. I ask myself whether this is perhaps due to unstable adrenal function that is over and undershooting what is needed to guide me smoothly through stress. I ask myself whether this has more to due with existential issues of vulnerability that PMR and this stage of life have raised.
I haven't experienced much Pred. Head. As a matter of fact I felt, in general, sharper than I had in a long time once I started on Pred. I am able to compartmentalize this stuff and haven't felt this affecting my work. I can still count on controlling and reading my emotions in my work. But I don't like what I'm feeling at all when I re-enter my own life.
Any ideas?