Hi everybody, I am really happy i found this site. I feel like pelvic pain is so poorly understood by the people around me. I feel very alone, scared and depressed. I went from a very active, social, outgoing person to lying on the coach feeling really depressed and in a lot of pain. I am so scared that this is going to be my life. I am 30 years old. A year ago i quit my job, broke up with my boyfriend of 7 years and went travelling. On my travels the pain started. It started with UTI symptoms then didden't go away after antibiotics. Now i have pain in buttocks, legs, back, pubic bone, pain in anus and vaginal pain. Before al this i was living in Amsterdam, living a very social and active life. Now I don't have anything left and i am living with my parents. I have been doing PT work, stretches and relaxation, but sometimes i am so stressed that i just hide away in panic and watch netflix. Also I'm reading into the mind body connection and TMS. The pain diddent get better, it got worse actually. I don't even recognize myself anymore. I have been dealing with this for the last 6 months. I can't imagine dealing with this for years. Sometimes I think about ending it all. Wich is so sad to me, because i really loved life before all this happened. My friends and family try to be supportive, but they really don't understand what it's like to have so much pain in the most private and personal place of your body. You really don't realize how much life revolves around sitting, until you can't sit anymore! I feel so broken and worry a lot about the future. How am I ever going to be able to work, find a man and have children. I mean who whants to date a girl with pelvic pain who can't sit for long. I am sorry for being so negative, but i am at the end of my rope and really sad and angry. I guess i just need some encouragement from people going through this. I wonder how you guys deal with the negative thoughts and catastrophic thinking? Thank you so much! Sarah
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