my thoughts and me

[Leigh6873]

second part to my ptsd poem x

[Foggyme Administrator]

Hello again Leight6873. Please forgive me if I'm unable to say too much right now but I didn't want to go to bed without saying...well, just something.

Your poem (I reply here to both parts) is spoken direct from the heart and it's both heartbreaking but in way, insightful and uplifting too.

I do remember some of the problems you've had with your family and I'm so sorry that the rift between you is not yet healed. I hold out the hope that this will not always be so.

You say that you 'trust no-one' so posting your words here is very brave...and perhaps placing your words here is one small step towards trusting something...and maybe in time you'll find the courage to share your words with your family.

And your words speak of 'learning to calm the fear [you] feel'...such an insightful and positive claim coming out of circumstances which have made you so desperately sad.

I really do get the sense that you are working very hard to recover a sense of peace and happiness: to get back to the real Leigh, the Leigh you feel they no longer see, but the one you know yourself to be.

And I truly do wish that for you...and more besides.

Finally, there are no words I can say here that will do true justice to the words you've written.

Please just know that there are people here who think of you and understand something of the things you are going through.

Please take very good care of yourself...be brave, be strong...and keep writing...

With love and many hugs xx

[jade_s]

Leight6873, I'm so sorry to hear that the people who you should be able to trust the most have disappointed you so much. I don't know you and don't really have any advice to offer - though I suppose that's not necessarily what you're looking for... All I can offer is that in such dark times, I try to tell myself that "tomorrow is another day" - try to breathe, as you say!! - and I also try to remember to forgive *myself* as well for not being who I used to be no thanks to all these (health) issues.

I hope you can eventually bring them some understanding, but in the meantime, this forum seems to be a safe place and I'm glad you could share here.

[ellj]

Sending you a hug or two, if only others could understand but thank you for sharing your feelings here....it must have been hard to write this down.

I hope one day soon you feel able to talk to some family members about the way you feel.

Meantime, hang in there and remember that those of us who come here care and share.

Love Ell

[JGBH]

Just come across your poem, Leight6873. So touching. How courageous of you to use the written word to release many negative and painful thoughts. very clever too, i hope you realise. So, just hang in there, keep building yourself up, one step at a time... you are stronger than you feel and you will become stronger. Hold you head up. many people you do not know are sending many warm and positive thoughts your way.

Big virtual hug to you Leight6873... x

JGBH