65, married, diag 1 1/2 years ago. On carb/leva, nemenda, exelon, lexapro,clozapam. Diag with depression, possible chemical poisioning, dementia, sleep apnea first. Slowed way down, on disability, unsteady at times, unmotivated, can't do numbers, building, fixing things like I could. Unmotivated and not much interest in things I loved doing. Days are long, don't feel needed, feel left out, less intimacy with my wife, want to work but can't, lost retirement money before I knew I was having trouble figuring our finances. Watch a lot of tv, hate what the worlds has become to, hate where I live. Have two dogs I love. Not much to look forward to.