HELP an advice

[Doobie44]

Morphine addict due to being left on it from 2019 till present [covid prevented any interaction or treatment or advice during the last 12 months,looking for ways to help ease my suffering an what works an wot doesn't ,I feel as though I'm losing it an it's getting harder an harder to pull back ,relationship is starting to crack an financially were border line since being incapable of working this is the 3rd year an I, still on morphine an I cannot control any of my withdrawal just happens ,I consider myself to have strength an excellent charm an character,but not no more I'm a zombie an alive an want to go back to the old Mr the person I know an others 2. anything at all id welcome all ideas an suggestions an I'm feeling desperately anxious ❤️to all

[Bevvy]

As you know morphine is a very serious drug and am sure being addicted to this is horrendous. I think you need to urgently speak to your gp to look at ways of coming off this drug. Think this must be done with medical intervention and slowly. You also need to discuss with gp if an alternative medication is available for whatever reason/condition you were prescribed it in the first place.You would also probably benefit from attending some thing like Narcotics Anonymous. Getting support from people who know what you are going through.

Whilst this is all harder due to pandemic. Am certain that the help is still available out there. You must actively seek it out.

[Doobie44 in reply to Bevvy]

I'm seeking far an wide but sometimes the withdrawal is so bad I'm in bed for days .lose track of wot date an day it is an my memory is poor also finally got sn appt for pain , management in 4 months probably be 10 foot under by then the way I feel l feel so weak thank you for your advice an reply it's much appreciated xx

[Bevvy in reply to Doobie44]

Is your doctor supporting your withdrawal? I believe needs to be done very slowly and under medical supervision. I have not been in this position so limited with what I can say.I DO think (as previously said) you would benefit from narcotics anonymous. They will have supportive mechanisms plus knowledge of ways to help.

[Doobie44 in reply to Bevvy]

=yes you're correct but they bring me down for too quick something to do with protocol yes I think I will try the narcotics anonymous thanks very much they may be light at the end of the tool yet 😢❤️

[Scotsman53]

Sorry you're having such a difficult time. I've found this site very helpful in the past: drugs-forum.com/

[Doobie44 in reply to Scotsman53]

Thank you ❤️

[Betsy50]

Hi dobie44 I was left on 40mg of morphine for 6 years !!! The braifog was horrendous so I decided to taper off it. It was hard going over the 6 weeks it took and there was days i felt like throwing the towel in but i had the willpower to keep going and that nearly one year now and can honestly say it's the best thing i ever done. My head is alot clearer now and I'm trying different meds for my pain. I totally understand where you are coming from maybe you should speak to your gp. I wish you well

[Doobie44 in reply to Betsy50]

Well I've been on a different planet as you can tell by the lateness of this message it's nice to know there is other people out there who know what I'm going through is horrendous but I'm getting there I wish you well x

[etheral]

Betsy50 had some good advice. You need to come off morphine slowly, maybe a 10% reduction every 2weeks. Drugs such as clonidine can be helpful, although certainly won't relieve all your withdrawal symptoms. You certainly need to see an addiction specialist. Depending on the dose you were taking, this easily could take months. Wishing you the best in a miserable situation, etheral..

[etheral in reply to etheral]

ps, Drugs such as suboxone can hasten the process of discontinuing morphine, but as they are opiates as well, you will need to take suboxone sublingual daily and will still be addicted. This needs to be discussed with a doctor well versed in the prescribing of such a drug.

[Doobie44 in reply to etheral]

They not even mentioned anything like that to me I asked for sleeping tabs cause I'm exhausted never had them before can't get any of them either

[Doobie44 in reply to etheral]

Thank you ❤️

[EternallyPainDriven]

Hi Doobie, I have been on morphine since 2009 for chronic back pain, i also have all day muscle spasms. Safe to say my body now requires it. But I always found that apart from getting a bit sweaty when am due my tablets that its not too difficult if you can distract yourself. Financially i am a train wreck too. Havent been able to work since i collapsed at work a few times 5 or so years ago, my trick with this is that you just have to come to terms with it, speak to creditors regularly and eventually it will become easier.

In regards to pain, the more active you are the better, easier said than done tho right!! Try different methods to become more active. It will help with the pain and also the mental anguish that dealing with chronic pain causes.

Dont beat yourself up when you dont achieve goals, just set achievable goals daily. Its also handy to find someone in a similar position you can vent with and provide each other with support as it is way easier to have someone experiencing similar issues that will totally understand you.

[Doobie44 in reply to EternallyPainDriven]

❤️

[Doobie44 in reply to EternallyPainDriven]

Thanks for your reply an I'm alone with my head I have a partner he's amazing but also difficult for him he does his best but I'm driving him crazy, and don't really speak to my my friends much about it because I'm so embarrassed

[Jenles]

I am so sorry to hear what you are going through. I have suffered severe pain both in my spine and elsewhere for very many years. I have had two spinal surgeries, appointments with pain consultants and anything else you can think of. I was on slow release morphine for many years until I told my GP that I wanted to stop. Perhaps because it was slow-release I don’t believe I was addicted, so am very fortunate. I still needed to ease of of it very gradually - as others have mentioned.

Experts say that this kind of drug does not work for chronic pain anyway!

Nevertheless, I was in hospital (for another serious complaint) a couple of years ago. I was no longer on morphine and instead was taking a strong anti-inflammatory drug. But the hospital said that I had to stop as I could not take it with the new problem. So I was given codeine - possibly worse, and definitely as bad - as morphine.

So I saw my GP and was given Tramadol. I can’t imagine that’s any better but am still taking it at the moment. The pain is too all-consuming to manage with nothing but paracetamol.

You must be able to speak to your GP at the very least. Or ring the NHS advice line. From what I hear they are generally very good indeed. Either way you need help.

Additionally, it seems that you really need to see a pain management consultant. They exist all over the country. Although their experience and expertise may well vary you should receive appropriate help in your particular circumstances.

I understand that you feel doubly trapped: severe pain + addiction to prescribed drugs is a lot to deal with.

As far as your financial concerns there is a charity, CAP (Christians against poverty) that works with people to get them out of debt. It helps anyone - you don’t have to be either a Christian or even a churchgoer to access help. If you can’t find them online please contact me and I’ll send you their number.

[Doobie44 in reply to Jenles]

Bless you ❤️