I have been living with chronic pain for the past 8 years. I had learnt to live with it, but two years ago I had an operation on my shoulder and since then I have gone downhill and this past 3 months have been worse my pain specialist gives me injections but this time has been unsuccessful. I have been referred and on a waiting list for the pain hospital in bath. But right now I'm in a really bad place I am really low, having anxiety attacks, in a lot of pain and most of all I feel like I am on self destruct and I feel like I am going to push my amazing partner away. I'm scared as people don't understand because I look normal. I don't know what to do....