Problem is I can barely walk. Anyway running away wouldn't stop the daily pain.
I am lucky I have really good friends, but I really can't get them to understand this pain. One friend said 'it's always something or other with you, something different everyday'
I understand her frustration, but she doesn't seem to realise how incredibly frustrating this is for me. I have had several injuries, all of which have left me with daily pain and nerve damage. The nerve damage manifests itself in different ways each and every day.
There is no escape.
Now the pain I have suffered for the last 13 years has just increased. Arthritis is setting in on my knees. I have had to use a crutch to get around for almost 2 years now. My base pain has just shot up and it's commanding me everyday and demanding so much of my energy. I have little energy left to do anything.
They say 'misery loves company' well my pain now has depression & anxiety to keep it company. I have tried to accept & adapt to the restrictions on my life due to pain & depression. But it's getting harder everyday. I have lightening strikes in my head; a burning/stabbing pain in my shoulder; have had a migraine for 10 days now; I cannot sit, stand or lie down without distressing pain in several areas of my body.
So, I want to run away. Sorry for the rant, but I have had enough of trying to explain, to people who can't or won't understand, how all these chronic pains affect my daily life, nevermind theirs.
Hope you're all having a better day. Take care. Catherine.