i thought i will let you all know what the latest is after all the overwhelming support i recieved last week. I spoke to Ruth last thursday and she like a lot of you felt that I should consider more treatment as there still was alot of options left. i had felt real dispair before all the comments on my last blog, but now feel i can face the music again. thanks so much ladies. Ruth gave some comforting information and I now realise that I can be referred to the Marsden etc if I am not happy with what my consultant says. I have an appt on Wednesday with my onc and will keep you all posted. Thanks again ladies - I really needed that support last week.