I am being admitted to hospital tomorrow for full pelvic clearence and my spleen removed. I am more worried about the operation being cancelled than going through it at the moment! I have had the week from hell and cant wait to get this flaming tumour out. I am going to ask the surgeon if i can have it to take home so I can kick it up and down the street! Is anger at an inanimate blob of human tissue a normal reaction or am I in need of some psychiatric help? At the moment everything that goes wrong is 'the tumours fault' and I am talking to, and frequently swearing at the huge swelling in my abdomen. So good riddance tumour from Thursday you are history!!!!