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[Suzanne333]

Hi lovely ladies.

Sending the biggest hug to all of you. Keep strong and positive. I’ve been reading your posts. Some really really sadden me. Damn this disease. I hate it for what it does to us and how it makes us feel.

Xxxxxxxxxxxx

[Alikay]

Oh how I agree with you, Suzanne. It seems to be a never ending roller coaster of emotions. I think we all try to keep positive, but it does get overwhelming at times. Such a cruel disease, and as you say, some really sad posts lately. I'm so thankful to have the support shown by members of this forum - I think I may have crumbled before now without it. Love and hugs to you all. Ali xx

[Suzanne333 in reply to Alikay]

Hi Ali.

It is a cruel disease. Feels like a game of Russian roulette at times. The worry, the not knowing, the highs and the lows. I think we are all amazing to go through what we do.

Sending you a very big hug. Xxxxx

[Kryssy]

Agree with Ali too. Got my oncologist visit tomorrow so a bit anxious tonight. xxx

[Cropcrop in reply to Kryssy]

I’ll be getting those very same jitters in a couple of weeks 😬, I understand your anxiety and hope you have a good visit tomorrow love. Big hugs and love ❤️Xx Jane

[Alifit in reply to Kryssy]

Hope all goes well tomorrow, sending good vibes.

Love Ali x

[Suzanne333 in reply to Kryssy]

Hope Kryssy.

Hope it goes well. Let us know.

Thinking of you.

Big hugs xxxx

[Kryssy in reply to Suzanne333]

I will do. Good or bad. Taxi will be here at 11 so I'll know what's what at about midday. Feel as if I have a shed load of crawlies in my tum and have had only 4 hours toss and turn sleep. So hard to keep calm. Until later and good luck to everyone facing the doctor this week. xxxx

[Tempestteapot in reply to Kryssy]

Good luck, Kryssy! xx

[Yoshbosh in reply to Kryssy]

Good luck Kryssy x

[Cropcrop]

Hiya Suzanne, lovely to see you, hope you’re ok? This disease is bloody awful and it certainly knows how to press all our buttons, that’s why this site is so very important to us all regardless of our situation. Sending you hugs and love right back, keep as well as you possibly can be ❤️Xx Jane

[Suzanne333 in reply to Cropcrop]

Hi Jane.

This site is very important. I go on Facebook sometimes but I prefer this site. So much ch support here.

I’m fettuccine by ready for work and don’t feel like going. Lol.

I hope you are ok. Keep smiling and Kerry positive.

Big hugs. Xxxxx

[Yoshbosh in reply to Suzanne333]

I’m the same, Suzanne. I go on the FB page to check in, but I feel that this is ‘home’ 😊

[Suzanne333 in reply to Yoshbosh]

Yes. I just prefer it here. Xxxx

[Katmal-UK]

Big hug right back at you suzanne xx

[Suzanne333 in reply to Katmal-UK]

🤗🤗🤗🤗xxxx

[Supergran38]

Hi Suzanne

Fully agree with you.

I got my scan results on the 16th January 2018, not good news.

Seems the little bugger has now gone on a walkabout and has travelled to the aorta.

Start chemo again on Thursday, but the way this illness takes over every corner of your life is unbelievable!

Even when you try to push it to the back of your mind, it’s back into the conversation.

Sending everyone lots of love and hugs 🤗 xx

[Suzanne333 in reply to Supergran38]

I’m so sorry yours has returned on the aorta. Bloody disease. Thinks it can do what it wants. Mine came back in the lymph node in shoulder and lymph nodes in abdomen and on the peritoneum. Why can’t it just bugger off!!!

You keep positive. They always have a plan. Sending you big hugs. Xxxx

[Supergran38 in reply to Suzanne333]

Thanks, and lots of hugs to you. Xx

[Irisisme in reply to Suzanne333]

I'm sending love and hugs to you too, you could surely do with more! This is a horrible disease that just keeps on giving ☹️ Iris xx

[Irisisme in reply to Supergran38]

Here's lots more love and hugs coming your way, Supergran, thinking of you and hope Thursday goes ok and you don't feel sick. Iris XX

[Supergran38 in reply to Irisisme]

Thanks so much for your wishes. Xx

[GoldenGourd]

Just wanted to say hi Suzanne. I’m feeling strangely ok after being told the cancer is on the increase in several parts of my bowel and omentum, 2 whole solid shiny months after my last chemo, yes ladies as long as that! Am surprised I feel ok but it might be partly down to being told I have options and being treated positively and with respect. So am going to try get on a trial, Ariel4.

Hope you are ok and able to enjoy the coming of spring... xxxx

Netti xx

[Irisisme in reply to GoldenGourd]

Oh, Netti, you need all the love and hugs you can get too, so I'm sending more. I hope you keep feeling ok, even if it is strange! Iris XX

[GoldenGourd in reply to Irisisme]

Thank you so much !! XxxNetti

[Suzanne333 in reply to GoldenGourd]

Hi Netti. You’re being very positive. What we have is horrible but, like you say, if you know they’re going to treat you it somehow helps. Keep positive and strong. You’ll be ok. We are all behind you. Xxx hugs. Xxxx

[GoldenGourd in reply to Suzanne333]

Thanks Suzanne. We are all behind one another, so we form a supportive circle. Xx

[Yoshbosh]

Hello Suzanne, sending you a big hug 🤗Lovely to ‘see’ you. Vicki x

[Suzanne333 in reply to Yoshbosh]

Aww. Thank you Vicki. I hope you are doing ok. Big hugs to you too. Xxxx

[Hertsmum]

Sending you a hug back Suzanne, it is a sh***y disease and sometimes hard to keep going, but then I look at everything ladies are going through on here and gives me strength to fight on. I’m starting my 6th line of treatment on Wednesday, which I might just post about while i’m there as it’s going to be a long day (trial)!

Hope you are doing ok and it’s great you’re still working.

Madeline xxxx

[Irisisme in reply to Hertsmum]

6th!! Madeline, just reading your message gives me strength. Love and hugs to you too. Iris XX

[Suzanne333 in reply to Hertsmum]

Hi Madeline.

It is a horrible shitty disease. Just keep living and doing what you can. I get scared and then I get cross with it and keep telling it to sod off.

You’re doing really well. 6th line. You’re doing great. Keep strong and positive. 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻

Big hugs. Xxxx

[Hertsmum in reply to Suzanne333]

Thank you so much Suzanne. I sometimes can’t believe how strong we all have to be, how much shit we have to put up with! My trial was supposed to start today but at the 11th hour there was a problem with one of my meds they hadn’t spotted 4 weeks ago - possible interaction with trial drug so it’s no go. Couldn’t believe it after numerous visits up to London for all the screening tests! So it’s back to my usual hospital and starting weekly taxol with gemzar next week, a new combination of old drugs! What a merry go round it is but we hold on for dear life! Keep telling it to sod off I like that Xxx

[Suzanne333 in reply to Hertsmum]

I’m so sorry they mucked your meds up with the trial. It’s a blip. You’ll still do great on the taxol and gemzar. They know it will work for you. The old drugs are usually the best. That’s why they are still around.

It certainly is a merry go round. Up and down and round and round. Continuous but keep with it and keep telling it to sod off. Annoying crappy little nasty putrid relentless disease. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️Xxxxxxx