I haven’t posted here in a while but still follow everyone’s posts. I finished treatment in June and am lucky enough to be NED (from stage 3c HGSC).
I’ve tried really hard to keep positive and focus on nice stuff since finishing treatment but since October this has been hard. I think this is partly down to being back at work and back in the “normal” world, still needing to find my new normal but everyone waiting for the old me to come back and I do find the uncertainty hard to manage.
December was a tough month with three bereavements, one quite sudden to a friend in her 50s.
I’ve suffered from depression before but managed this with counselling and never taken medication. Yesterday, I went to my GP as I feel the time has come to get some extra help but I felt that my GP was prepared to offer me anything I wanted. We did the depression questionnaire but of course a lot of the questions relate to things that are side effects of treatment and also, it’s hard to know if I’m tired because of work, but either way I passed the test with flying colours and have been prescribed anti depressants.
If I start taking them, she tells me that it will be for six months to a year which suddenly seems like a huge commitment and I’m half wondering if I should go back to my previous method of dealing with it myself (although not sure if I have the energy).
Anyway, I was just wondering if any of you had experience of taking anti depressants after treatment, did they help and how long were you on them?
I know that lots of you are going through really tough times dealing with treatment and recurrence so I feel bad for asking this but given that I’m lucky enough to be NED I feel I have a responsibility to use that wisely and I’m not at the moment.