Hi ladies. Wanted to say hi to everyone and wondered if anyone is in a similar place to me at the moment. Am finding the reality of living with advanced cancer hard going these days. First line chemo done, surgery done, first CT post treatment was good. But side effects from chemo, surgery and menopause are tough. Side effects from Avastin are difficult and headaches and joint pain are draining me. Everyone i meet is comments on how wonderful it is that my initial treatment went so well but i just want to scream that its Stage IV and it will be coming back. Work is heavy on my mind. I have been out for over a year and am feeling guilty about being out on sick leave. But the hardest bit of all us looking into my kids eyes every night and thinking is there anything I should or could be doing to give me a bit more time with them. Am hoping someone else has similar difficulties and might share their thoughts.