Hey. I've been told I might have HOCD. At first the thoughts seemed intrusive and scared me a lot. After some time I started to notice I am bringing them forward myself because I felt weird and anxious without them. Then came a period when I panicked about not panicking (Backdoor spike). And now I am not even panicking about not panicking, but not in a good way like Im sure I wont do a thing. I keep thinking I want this and I keep resisting getting better. Does anyone experience something similar or knows what this i s about?
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Yep! Totally get it. I’ve also worry when I’m not worried about it. Like wait..does that mean I’m OK with this thought now? Does that mean it’s true?? NOPE. That’s just a part of the OCD loop my friend. When that happens, just name it. “This is a symptom of OCD” and keep participating in whatever activity you were doing when the thought hits.
Thank you! I dont think its just the OCD with me though. There are some things that seem a thousand times more difficult because I think I might want to lose control if I make myself do them (and I should). I have been trying to research a little bit about the fenomenon of refusing to be better, that is something that makes me doubt my OCD too. I just get this feeling that I love my thoughts and I dont want to get rid of them so I find it hard to find the motivation to stop them. I always think that everyone with OCD clearly knows they dont want to do any harm, but for me its not always the case, maybe its my OCD speaking, I dont know.
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