My thoughts have been the worst they’ve Been by far. I have cancelled events and family things . I had a horrible thought that I had to choice one person ( my mum or my partner ) and if I didn’t pick one of them one was going to get hurt and I have these horrible thoughts that I’m going to lash out and be violent towards them and they are scaring me so much I have pushed my aken away form the two people I love the most in my life. Used to have thoughts that came and went but this one has been bad for a while now. Everything I do I think it’s before I’m going todo something bad from even drinking and coughing that’s I Means I going to commit one of these horrible thoughts. I don’t want to hurt anyone I know I couldn’t but my minds taking me down all the wrong ways and before I know it in my head I’ve got myself as a criminal and that I’m going to go to jail or a mental hospital. If it wa shuts the thoughts I could cope , but because my minds leading me down all the wrong paths it’s scaring me so much . I’m hardly eating or sleeping or functioning at all. I’ve asked my go so many times to be referred to a specialist and no one is listening to me . I need help and fast , I can’t carry on living like this I too have been having suicidal thoughts a lot Lately. I just want to get back to feeling okay. Everyday is such a struggle for me from the minute I get out of bed. It’s almost like my brain doesn’t want me to be okay and to be stable and that’s all I want . ☹️
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The festive season is often difficult. There is so much pressure on people to have fun and everyone else appears to be celebrating with family and friends. It's not surprising that OCD has targeted your relationships with your mother and partner.
It likes to get us just where it hurts us the most. But remember that people with OCD are usually really safe to be around, because we are so concerned that we might harm someone. It's the people who don't care if they harm anyone that you need to be on your guard about!
So really, it's just OCD tormenting you. These horrible thoughts are just thoughts.
Do go back to the GP and ask to be referred to an OCD therapist. Don't take no for an answer. I can check out some other ways of getting an appointment if the GP is really obstructive. Always remember that you can ask for an appointment with another GP at the same practice, who may be more helpful.
Try to manage the run up to Christmas the best you can, and if you can bear it, try to meet up with family or friends outside the big festivities. A quiet get together with one or two people is much less daunting than a huge celebration.
Call a helpline such as the Samaritans or OCD Action if you are feeling really down. Intrusive thoughts can be vile, but what they are telling you is not true.
I’m so sorry thoughts are bothering you so much. I hope you get a break from them soon.
I keep having the Same thought going over and over again. Relating to the last post . I’ve just myself away from my mum and partner and I really just want to see them both! I was supposed to be spring this weekend with my partner at his house and because of the thoughts I haven’t went and I just want to see him so badly but my thoughts and mind are stopping me. I’m scared of going and the thoughts to get worse when I’m there and that I won’t be able to relax
It’s our first Xmas together and I just want it to be happy and enjoy it but my minds driving me absolutely crazy
I know how you feel, for 3 years I had all sorts of intrusive thoughts! Holidays and birthdays created so much fear, when they should be a time of joy and togetherness! I never had ERP or saw an OCD specialist... Believe it or not I take CBD and saffron oil, and it has been a godsend! Thoughts are pretty much non-existent and I no longer survive, I thrive, at peace, finally, calm and happy.... A thought sometime's pops in my head, and I just tell it to f%$# off :)... There is hope!
Adam
Thanks that’s great to hear , something positive ! All I want to do is be happy again! What CBD Oil do you take and where can I purchase both the oil and saffron oil ?
I take 8 drops cbd, no particular brand twice a day and this saffron off amazon, 15 drops twice a day:
amazon.com/Satiereal-Saffro... ....
Let me know how you come along....
Best,
Adam
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I’m constantly feeling frustra...
I feel like my thoughts are being seen by people who wouldnt, and I imagine their opinions and faces.
I can’t cope with this!! 
I feel my ocd has got worse 
Ocd and anxiety??