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I'm still knocking the thoughts away!

6 years ago•6 Replies

I'm feeling it's also important for me to share how I live with the OCD on a day to day basis!!

At the moment I'm overcoming a really stressful time in my life! I've also been faced with real life challenges too. I'm grateful to say that they've all have a happy ending!!

At this point that edgy feeling would set me back for weeks even months, I've started calling this my pulse to getting stuff done, and do the things I WANT to be doing, and doing it. As I write this I'm having a morning off, something I've not been able to do for many years, and just this act send my head off on one, but I'm saying no, I feel and remember that feeling when OCD doesn't have affect on my, and I relax, it's trying really hard, but I'm winning, because I'm armed with this is OCD talking not real me, knowing when it creeps in, and just the fact I'm anxious is a give away, most times it vanishes like smoke, and I feel a real sense of calm, and I remind myself this is it, this is winning the fight.

When I reach this point, because I've been so locked on, I have the sense of feeling of being lost, because I'm free from the thoughts routine, this is the point of looking for what you want to be doing.

I don't know if this will help anyone, but I know it helps me, and I've learned A LOT about my OCD whilst being on here from what you guys have been through.

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Sallyskins6 years ago

That's really positive, and it's great that you are coping so well. I remember that you had an exhibition coming up, and I hope that has gone well.

I know how difficult it can be to relax! It's often the case that after you've been working frenetically, and then you get a chance to rest, you just flop down without relaxing properly because your mind is still going like the clappers. It's not always easy to switch off. That gives OCD an opening.

I think it makes a real difference to do things you enjoy. Everyone deserves to have some work they really love doing. Of course we all have chores to do, and things we'd rather not have to do, at work and at home, but having something we enjoy and know is worthwhile makes a huge difference. My own OCD really took hold when I was doing very routine low level office work that demanded my concentration but not any creative thinking.

Thanks for posting and keep on doing it! This forum has become more lively thanks to contributors like you!

Katz101• in reply toSallyskins6 years ago

You're welcome, and you've been a rock, when I've really needed someone, something I'll always be grateful for.

My exhibition was a real boost and was really wonderful, inbetween the flight or fight, but I rode it out!!

I would also like to add this to, when I was at that point of running away!! and that's normally when I'm faced with the black hole and I see no way out, this thought came to me, if I run away now, I'll only have to come back at a later time and face it again, and I don't want to do that more, because it prolongs the torture we endure, I stay and ride it out, and trust me, it's over in minutes, and that's in reference to going to the dentist, social gatherings and anything I find too stressful to deal with. I have got to this point in my life and now I'm aiming for my life goal.

I'm going to hang around on this forum for a while because I do also feel it's important to give and handout advise that only sufferers understand. Plus for me I'm going to build myself a OCD maintenance check list!!! So if I start slipping again I notice quicker.

One last thing, when I'm well, I have very little memory of how bad I was affected by my OCD, and it's like trying to remember the pain!!! I can't, it's only when I'm in the OCD that it all comes back, well the understanding of what it's like.

My heart goes out to anyone that has to face OCD.

Sallyskins• in reply toKatz1016 years ago

That is so nice of you to say nice things about me! I'm pleased the exhibition went well and gave you a boost.

I agree about OCD. The panic can feel awful, but it does subside and move on. Some metaphors that have been suggested to me is of clouds overhead and move on and disperse, or a wave that swells and then breaks, and I have found these helpful.

Katz101• in reply toSallyskins6 years ago

I've often thought I'd like to paint healing paintings, something that only the sufferers would understand, actually I did do a painting of a swan on black water once, and it's reflection was the wrong way round!! And I called it "something isn't right"

Sallyskins, you're welcome, you are a very giving person, that's something I'll not take for granted.

Sallyskins• in reply toKatz1016 years ago

Thanks for the compliment. I much appreciate it.

Samantha126 years ago

Thanks for your post. I've had a great few weeks then yesterday OCD crept back in, then worrying about how bad it might get, and worrying if the thoughts would get a grip on me again....I hate the fact that it's can come and go just like that....I feel like I can never truly be free of it though I now have techniques to help me better I just hate that it can pop up and ruin and really nice family moment ☹ your right. It truly is a fight, and we can get on top of that fight, but I feel like it will never really be over

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