I just want to cry!!

[Katz101]

I'm having about 10% okay during the evening, but the rest of the day fighting with the intrusive thoughts, it's trying to pull me back in. I have an exhibition coming up with a very unrealistic deadline, I'm very fortunate to be having an opening night, but it's this that's causing it, and I know this, but man it doesn't make it any easier, and I do feel bad because I'm seeking reassurance daily!!! I'm worrying about my health and everyone's around me!! It's draining me, and even writing this makes me feel sick, because I realise how up to 90 I am. I'll get up and carry on regardless, but for some reason I feel the need to share how bad it is!!! Only you guys understand the stress of what we go through, I feel I need to work twice as hard to do something, yes that most folk would be stressed over, but not this much stress. I can't eat properly, tummy cramps, skin has broken out in rashes....... I just wanted to share this with the group.

I blooming hate intrusive thoughts. It's not going to get me, I'm having this exhibition.