I'm new on here. Could anyone relate to my symptoms please

[Icegem88]

Hi everyone my name is gemma and Im 28 years old. Dont know if I have ocd or not. my fella says I do and I need to see a doctor but I'm finding it hard to get help. I have to make sure all the windows and doors are locked even if anyone else has checked them. I'm constantly cleaning. I have a whole cupboard full of bottles of bleach. everything in my house has to be straight I go mad if anyone has moved ananything. Ive got hand sanitizer in every room of my house. I also carry it in my handbag n Coat pockets. I only like even numbers and I have to step over the cracks in the pavement. I used to go out everyday to see friends but now I can't leave the house by myself. I can't sleep in the bedroom by myself coz I just think someone's going to break In and get me (I have a samurai sword next to my bed). I feel so sorry for my fella I can go from happy to angry so easily it's affecting out relationship. on a daily basis I say to myself I'm fat n horrible. I've gone from a size 20 to a size 8 I currently weigh 7st 12lns I've had thoughts about cutting my fat off. when I have alsorts going thru my head I have to pick my scalp till it bleeds. I'm so bad I can't even leave a dirty spoon in the sink when I go to bed. please someone tell me what's going on