Heyho wonderful people!
So, on monday I had a panic attack, happened to me one time before, but there I had a reason, not this time tho.
Whatsoever, I smoked a fag like 10 minutes before I started feeling weird, and when I started thinking about
why the attack happened, I couldn't keep that fag out of my mind.
It felt like I knew it wouldnt do me any good while I smoked it.
So I threw away all of my fags and I'm on day 3 now.
The last days have been pretty rough tho,
I was feeling dizzy, tired and exhausted, my throat started hurting yesterday and my mind seems to get
trapped into some creepy thoughtchains (why did that happen, is this because i stopped smoking or is it just me and it
has nothing to do with smoking) and so on
I got a appointment with a psychologist on monday to talk about that a bit, but I felt like writing it down anyways.
The first time I'll use such a service by the way.
End of story: I'm now officially 76 hours smoke free, but I havent really had the urge to consume any tobacco
because I feel so weird about it, but it felt weird being with friends who all puff and not put on a faggy.
Sorry for writing down such a unsorted stream of thoughts, my brain feels a bit "clouded" these days.
keep it up