Week 9 - 60 days

My first post on month 3, this is a major triumph for me as I always relapse by week 5/6 give it another go straight away and fully relapse by week 7.

I am very target / goal focused mind and not being able to go past that week was wrecking my head.

My target was always to be a nonsmoker by my 40th birthday, my birthday is tomorrow and I am not smoking.

Sadly when I look back, I smoked for 28 years out of the 40 in my existence, it literally means I spent 3/4 of my life smoking, smelling awful, looking yelish and always coughing.

I've taken antibiotics, steroids, inhalers...

I woke up every day tired and my eyes were always dark and tired.

So far in my all life, my biggest mistake was to ever start smoking.

I am no longer a serial quitter, I am now a smoker that chooses not to smoke, not today, not tomorrow and hopefully not ever again.

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  • That is fabulous. You are an inspiration to us all!

  • Thank you lizzie..

  • That's brilliant to read. You should be really proud of yourself, and of the determination you've shown to get here. I think you may very well have it cracked this time.

    PS - Happy birthday for tomorrow!

    PPS - did you really start smoking when you were twelve? I suppose you don't know any better at that age. I'm the daft one - I didn't start until I was 28!

  • How are you doing Nozmo? Is your stessful week at work over you now?

  • Yes it is rowens...finally. What a week! Feel completely fine now as I knew I would. Just a pity it got to a point when I thought a cigarette would help.

    How are you doing? Weather and winter nights not getting you down I hope.

  • I did Nozmo, there was this very popular girl, older than me and stupid as a wall, anyways.

    .. she was the hot thing with the fag on her hand, and I was more of the geek with the brains...so much for the brains! So I decided that smoking was cool, and I was so cool, oh man...I can't tell you how cool I was lol

    Thank god I started thinking for myself after that, that hot girl died when she was about 18 with an heroin or cocain overdose! It could have been me!

  • I am good Nozmo thanks. I am still comfortable and happy in my quit. I think the last 2 weeks were a turning point for me as I survived huge stresses!

    I headed into Week 9 yesterday, time seems to be passing by much quicker now and at the stage of counting weeks rather than days but need to keep my guard up at all times! Happy to have you back on board....

    PS I have adapted to the yearly seasonal depression of winter dark nights but can't get over the drop in temperature today from 16 degrees yesterday to a wind chill temperature of 3 degrees today! Hope ye are surviving storm Abigail....

  • mmaya, I love that phrase, "stupid as a wall" Tragic about the girl in the end though

    rowens, glad to see you're still at ease with the quit and feeling happy. As far as the temperature goes; I started off the day in Norway and looked forward to being a bit warmer when I stepped off the plane in Newcastle. If anything it was colder!

  • My first post on month 3, this is a major triumph for me as I always relapse by week 5/6 give it another go straight away and fully relapse by week 7.

    I am very target / goal focused mind and not being able to go past that week was wrecking my head.

    My target was always to be a nonsmoker by my 40th birthday, my birthday is tomorrow and I am a non smoker.

    Sadly when I look back, I smoked for 28 years out of the 40 in my existence, it literally means I spent 3/4 of my life smoking, smelling awful, looking yelish and always coughing.

    I've taken antibiotics, steroids, inhalers...

    I woke up every day tired and my eyes were always dark and tired.

    So far in my all life, my biggest mistake was to ever start smoking.

    I am no longer a serial quitter, I am now a smoker that chooses not to smoke, not today, not tomorrow and hopefully not ever again.

    Ah mmaya I am so thrilled for you, I too think thing you have nailed it this time, You really deserve great celebrations for your 40th tomorrow and I hope your family spoil you rotten! Well done!

  • Thank you Rowens xxx

  • Happy Birthday Mmaya.xx

    Remember that 40 is the new 20 (I have been reading up:D).

    I hope you have a lovely birthday and a good year ahead of you. xx

  • Thank you lovely, I'm rooting for you today! You go girl :)

  • Happy Birthday Mmaya and I hope you have a lovely day. x

    Lovely to read your post,. You've put your heart and soul into this quit and you deserve your success so much, not least for the support you've given to all of us others on here.

    I think the only way is up for you now.

    Just enjoy your birthday and give yourself a day off from thinking about your quit.

    Wishing you all the very best. xx

  • Thank you my dear, I really appreciate having you beside me all along. Thank you Linda xxx

  • Thank you all for your lovely words, they mean the world to Me! You've helped me so much over the last 2 months and it's lovely to see a random bunch of people from all sorts of backgrounds, all ages and all nationalities getting together for one same goal, to help each other.

    I am very happy to have landed on this forum, you guys are fantastic!!!!! Xxxx

  • I like what you wrote: I am now a smoker who chooses not to smoke. A long time ago someone said something similar to me. He said 'I'm a smoker, I just don't smoke' And I've never forgotten it. Used it in a post I wrote this morning in fact.

    Well after all, we are addicts. Alcoholics are alcoholics for the rest of their lives and have to make a daily decision to avoid drink same as drug addicts.

    So we need to face this too and remember it.

  • Well Becky, I believe in any word I've said.

    I don't think I will ever be able to call myself non- smoker or ex smoker... Unfortunately!

    I've come to realise that I have a dependency to cigarettes and like any other junkie, I just have to stay away from my junk.

    The idea of never ever smoking again puts me off quitting... Therefore I choose not to smoke, not today, not tomorrow and hopefully not ever.

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    Enjoy your very special day mmaya!

  • Too cute Rowens ;) thanks a million! Xxx

  • mmaya!

    Happy birthday :) And fecking well done you! I'm so so glad you got past your block - what a lovely post to see today :) Sorry I haven't been around to support you - but it looks like there's a good crowd around now *hi everyone!*

    Hope you've had an awesome day xxx

  • Incy my dearest friend, thank you buddy :)

    I am very proud of myself alright ahahah it is a big deal for me.

    I'm not celebrating yet! I'm going to wait another month and once I get rid of the champix I'll make a party lol

    Thank you for your lovely message :)

  • You should so be proud of yourself :) I'm sorry not to have been around to see it all happening for you - but I'll keep popping in if there's a party in the offing ;) You can DO this mmaya you amazing determined wonderful winner!

  • Thanks incy :) just what I needed to hear!

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