Hi everyone, would like to thank you all for the support you have given me in my no smoking life, now on day 92!
I am 53 and have smoked since I was about 18...I was the sort of person that you would never think would be able to stop..a real hardened smoker..I thoroughly enjoyed it and was thoroughly addicted.
My mother became ill last Dec and on 17th Jan this year was diagnosed with terminal lung cancer. She gave up smoking when she was my age and was 82 so hadnt smoked for 29 years.
She died on Feb 10th and I stayed with her from her diagnosis...I knew she only had weeks but Mum didnt. I knew really from Dec that she had cancer which is why I stopped on Dec 27th, she was very pleased but I dont think she ever thought I could keep it up! My father who I hadnt seen since I was 3 actually died from lung cancer as well 10 years ago...I found that out a few years ago so you know why I have stopped.
To be honest part of me thinks I may be only postponing the inevitable as I have lost both parents from this evil disease but I am at peace with that. Mum died at 82 as an ex smoker of 29 years, Dad died at 70 as a smoker so if I have inherited a gene hopefully I can be more like Mum.
I was diagnosed with a rare form of bone cancer in 2012, have had it all sorted and am in remission so hopefully cancer wont knock at my door again.
Seeing my Mum lose her battle for life is my motivation....however bad it gets and it hasnt been too bad considering, I will not smoke, I am too frightened to tbh.
Sorry about this sermon but this is me and I wish it hadnt taken this to stop....if ever you have a bad day and are tempted please dont, the price is so not worth it..take care all. xxx