100 days!!

It's been 100 days since my last smoke & what a long, strange trip it's been (and still is)! I knew I'd have to deal with nicotine withdrawal & likely weight gain, but I had absolutely no clue about dopamine receptors, neurotransmitters, anxiety, & depression. I still have cravings though fewer & farther between, but sometimes strong (& thankfully fleeting). Nothing I haven't been able to overcome. I am extremely conscious of being in "No Man's Land" & am looking forward now to the 6th month mark! I work with smokers & can smell their breath, clothes, hands & hair from across the room. Sometimes when they all go out to smoke I get a brief desire for just 1 drag, but ALWAYS I'm glad it's not me that smells like that. My skin looks better & I've been told I look healthier with the added 15 lbs (still wanna lose 5)! I'm not eating everything in sight every minute anymore.I haven't slept so deep since I was a child either! While I'm still dealing with occasional anxiety, I feel myself coming out of it. I never want to go thru this again which has become as strong a motivator as not wanting to die. My first 8 days were with the help of 14mg patches- then CT, my faith, & reading this website EVERY single night. Thanks to all who have shared their experiences & knowledge- it's been truly inspirational & helpful & as I grow stronger & more confident in my quit I hope to help others on my way to that penthouse!!

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  • Good post Roseanne! 100 days is a superb milestone, you should be really chuffed :D.

    The smell of other smokers was something which I wasn't prepared for. When I realised I could smell smokers from 20 yards away and they smelt disgusting I suddenly felt a huge amount of guilt for putting my lovely wife through years of hell having to put up with me smelling like that!.

    The skin thing is something I made a post about a couple of days ago as I genuinely couldn't believe the difference stopping smoking has made to my skin :eek: brilliant :D

  • 100 days is massive, huge well done to you and you're sounding positive which is fab!!

    Totally get the "no man's land" feeling but you are a proper non-smoker now!!

    I work with smokers & can smell their breath, clothes, hands & hair from across the room. Sometimes when they all go out to smoke I get a brief desire for just 1 drag, but ALWAYS I'm glad it's not me that smells like that.

    Oooh YES!!

    Am in a small company and in the minority as a non-smoking office girl. The smell from the smokers, well it makes me feel guilty for stinking like that :eek::eek:

  • I still find it hard to believe I used to smell like that. How come we don't notice the smell when we smoke??

    Seriously well done Roseanne- that's a fantastic achievement :)

  • Well done Roseanne on 100 days. Yes it is a long challenging journey but people like you show us newbies it is possible

    Have a good day xxxxx

  • Thank you all so much & I do feel super "chuffed"- man I've come to love that word! Never heard it before this forum! I can't believe how stupid I was to think that I didn't smell like that when I smoked! Washing my hands, popping in a mint, standing "downstream" & of course carrying perfume around! I'm so embarrassed about it now but shocked as I become aware of all the ways I rationalized my behavior & just how much consideration I had to give to the disgusting habit every day of my life. Definitely feeling free!!!!

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