So almost a month ago now I had a panic attack, I was convinced I was having a heart attack, for a couple of weeks after I was paranoid about dropping dead/afraid to go to sleep at night because I was worried I wouldn't wake up in the morning. I would wake up in the morning and say to myself "oh I'm alive...thank god...now you just have to get through another day". I'd have chest pain and back pain and arm pains, I was/am convinced of three things:-
1) I was having heart problems (I'm still anxious about my heart I often freak out when I can't feel my heart beat/compulsively checking my pulse);
2) I was having a stroke; and
3) Currently due to pain in my shoulder blades and under my left ribs I'm worried I have lung cancer. I always sit and listen to my breathing to see if I can hear whistling in my throat.
Everyone, every Dr tells me it's anxiety and I would be more inclined to accept that if I didn't smoke....I'm only 22 (turning 23 just before Christmas). I know google is my worst enemy because you google your symptoms and you've either got cancer, aids, pregnant or pregnant with cancerous aids.
I've developed health anxiety from my first panic attack and now it's developed into hypochondria.
I just want to feel better. I want to stop freaking out about every little ache or pain. Whats the point in life if I'm just constantly fretting about my health.
Currently I'm cutting down before I have a hypnotherapy session which I hope will have some physiological effect on me to make it easier to do it cold turkey. I tried patches but had the most ****ed up dreams that I'd lie in my bed petrified of going back to sleep. I don't want to take champix because I've got a weak mind and would probably end up going mental.