Today was my first day smoke Free! Iam a Canadian who spent 3 years working in the UK pursuing a career in the offshore oil industry. I now work on a ship in Nigeria, where i control or pilot,as we say, a remotely operated submarine.
When iam offshore working 12 hour shifts, 7 days a week for 28 days, i smoke up to 20 fags a day. At home i smoke between 5 and 10 a day.
Anyways I feel like a slave to the smoke! I do not enjoy smoking! Iam an active skier and surfer and both of these sports are psychically demanding. After 6 years of torturing my body my abilities in these two passions of mine have most defiantly been affected!
I have been wanting to quit since i got addicted, but seriously started wanting to quit 6 months ago. the second day i was out here i was smoking outside and looked at my smoke and realized how much i f&^%ing hate it! I had a very profound feeling that something changed inside my head. Later while on the internet, I found this great forum by mistake!! I was searching for reviews of the nicotine inhaler, which i purchased before starting my month long shift at sea. This in turn led me to a link to Allen Carrs Easy Way book. I read it all at once and really connected with it. I then started reading some of the old vets on here's stories and became INSPIRED! Iam honestly not an emotional person but i have been crying a few times today reading some of your stories. Tears of joy for you guys even tho i will never know any of you (I wonder if the tears are a personal withdrawal? because crying is very very abnormal for me)
So thats it for now ill stop rambling. But day 1 in the bag and this ship is a massive trigger for me!
thank you for the inspiration and advice. I have a very very very long way to go but iam excited to wage war!!!!!1