Hullo! Iam new here!

Today was my first day smoke Free! Iam a Canadian who spent 3 years working in the UK pursuing a career in the offshore oil industry. I now work on a ship in Nigeria, where i control or pilot,as we say, a remotely operated submarine.

When iam offshore working 12 hour shifts, 7 days a week for 28 days, i smoke up to 20 fags a day. At home i smoke between 5 and 10 a day.

Anyways I feel like a slave to the smoke! I do not enjoy smoking! Iam an active skier and surfer and both of these sports are psychically demanding. After 6 years of torturing my body my abilities in these two passions of mine have most defiantly been affected!

I have been wanting to quit since i got addicted, but seriously started wanting to quit 6 months ago. the second day i was out here i was smoking outside and looked at my smoke and realized how much i f&^%ing hate it! I had a very profound feeling that something changed inside my head. Later while on the internet, I found this great forum by mistake!! I was searching for reviews of the nicotine inhaler, which i purchased before starting my month long shift at sea. This in turn led me to a link to Allen Carrs Easy Way book. I read it all at once and really connected with it. I then started reading some of the old vets on here's stories and became INSPIRED! Iam honestly not an emotional person but i have been crying a few times today reading some of your stories. Tears of joy for you guys even tho i will never know any of you (I wonder if the tears are a personal withdrawal? because crying is very very abnormal for me)

So thats it for now ill stop rambling. But day 1 in the bag and this ship is a massive trigger for me!

thank you for the inspiration and advice. I have a very very very long way to go but iam excited to wage war!!!!!1

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nsd_user663_52845

5 years ago

Hi Chuuurles

That was a great first post to read.

Shows true detemination and honesty.

Tears are hard to come by so when they come I think we should embrace them .... must mean something pretty damn serious to us that don't usually cry!

I am sure you are experiencing tears of joy, as you read other peoples journeys and begin your own.

I think your sports will benefit amazingly from your decision to quit. I can feel a huge difference with my cycling after only 6 weeks. Let us know how you get on with them as I think you will be able to go faster, longer, stronger than ever!

Keep your memory green, keep in mind how great and excited you feel now about your quit as this will be so much use to you in the coming weeks. Write down your thoughts and emotions so you can look back at them as time goes by ... you will seriously see a difference as you keep going .... and it's great! It will be "was that really me?!?"

Great that you are coping with what sounds like your biggest trigger. Well done.

Wishing you all the strength in the world for your quit, keep us informed and finally …….. Welcome to the Party

Don't work too hard!

Take care

Greg

nsd_user663_53891

thank you!

This is from my phone so there will be many mistakes! Guys thank u so much for the support it means alot to me!! I was the worst kind of smoker at home. The secret smoker... my gf knew i smoked but thought it was maybe 1 or 2 a week. She had no idea the extent to which iam addicted to nicotine. However just spent the last 20 mins coming fully clean with her. Honestly it feels amazing to come clean and explain to that iv stopped. I want this quit to be 100% honest! Also reading your posts gave me a hige boost this am.. as soon as i woke i saidtoday i CHOOSE not to smoke! One thign tho is i feel like iam cheating witb the inhaler beacuse enjoy it.. is this bad? Or at this point should i just be happy that iam not choking myself to death? Didnt get much sleep last night...even still i felt way less groggy in the mornng yyiipppie! Last thing.. still an emotional wreck but i can deal with that!!:cool:

Good for you being open and up front with your better half!

Can only be a good thing surely, nothing to catch you out!

I wouldn't be worried about the inhaler at all at this stage. I did worry and got myself in a mess instead of dealing with my quit in stages.

If it is enjoyable ... then enjoy it!

You will definitely stay off the smokes that way.

Sucking smoke into our lungs has surely got to be the worst thing we could ever do isn't it? There can't be a more damaging, legal way of harming youself can there ..... so if it's between that and the inhaler .... my money is going on the inhaler! (err....hope that made sense! :rolleyes: )

As the lovely Dippy Egg told me weeks ago, keep that inhaler in your handiest pocket and rock on.......we're not cheating were just settling in gently!

Good on you mucker

nsd_user663_53617

Hi Churlees, cracking view!! You sound very positive about this quit and coming clean with your other half all helps along with support from this forum.

I can understand the secret smoker thing...that was me! I live alone and just used to smoke at home (well outside) so lots didn't even know I smoked. It became my guilty secret and yet couldn't stop. I'd go and visit friends or family and would be itching to go after a couple of hours do I could go home and smoke!

There are so many reasons why being a none smoker is great but freedom from the hold nicotine has over you has to be one of the best!

Good luck on your journey and why not join the November quitters group where you can chat with people at a similar stage of quit to yourself (click quick links then social groups)

Karen

Pumped

Iam to fired up right now to form cohesive thoughts. Iam actually kind of scared of the amount of engery i have. I cried alot today for no apparent reason. Maybe morning the loss of like others have said here. Anyways Iam finished work for the day and should be winding down but i feel like i could run for an hour haahah.

thru-out this process iv been listening to Arcade Fire, very inspirational music and i would recommed it to anybody who is down in the dumps about CHOOSING NOT TO SMOKE ANYMORE! ha

Greg your on!! Iv been a long time lurker of many different forums but this is the first time iv attempted to actually join in on the conversation and its been gREAT as iv already said 5x!

Tomorrow i get into the end of nov quitting group on here! Good night all!

...and another thing!

lol iam not finished yet! ha

Greg, two things.

ONE: i totally hear you and it seems like we both apologize too much! what i meant was i wanna be in the penthouse in a year(bad) AND i wanna be giving advice! not iam going to wait till iv not smoked for a year and then advise people haah hope that makes more sense!!

TWO: I took your advice on the journal and already am finding it soothing. All of this is very new to me (actively participating in a forum, writing in journals, crying haahaha)

iam going to share my first journal entry but probably will not in the future as i think i will need to keep something personal that i can refer to .. here goes

day2

i have so much energy its ridiculous! Last night i hardly got any sleep,

it was hard to wake up but once i was up i had none of the smokers hangover and it was a glorious. Iam so filled with promise right now at the thought of not having to be a slave to the nicotine monster! is it really this easy? surely it must get harder or everybody would quit. I feel ready to take on a harder challenge anyways bring it on! Remember when you used to run cross country? that was real pain. It must get harder or maybe its just being on your guard for years on end that is hard? I must admit i cried more today than i have in a very long time but it was enjoyable and felt good. like a huge weight was being lifted off mychest or like i was crying the nicotine out of me.

Havent changed the cartridge in my inhaler since yesterday and using it alot less

READ this CHARLES IF YOUR EVER FEELING WEAK! BRING ON DAY 3!

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