Day 4 – not feeling so good today. Feel quite strong in my head but had a very difficult start. I ride a motorbike into London each day on the M40. This morning there was an accident and they closed the road. Being on a bike I weaved my way to the front of the queue where I joined all the other bikers who had done the same. Everyone was out of their cars/bikes and just a few meters ahead was the body of a biker. Not entirely sure what happened but it was all a bit grim and everyone was being very patient and quiet. Apart from the idiot who felt the need to get out his phone walk up to the body and film it.
Now traditionally I would of course, have reached for the smokes. But today there were no smokes. Instead I had to wait 1 hour until they finally removed the body whilst at the same time being completely surrounded by people who were, quite understandably smoking. All I could see was a body in the road and people smoking. The whole thing was quite surreal.
I resisted the urge to ask someone for a smoke and instead squirted Nicorette into my mouth. But it’s been hard today and I feel so tired.
I think I’ll be ok and get through it as it’s almost the end of the day and my resolve still feels strong. But I am finding the afternoons particularly hard and the tiredness is particularly difficult.
I suppose if having to stare at a dead body for 45 minutes didn’t break me I’m doing reasonably well.