Been on the champix since Sunday but still been having the odd cigarette as they tell you you can do up to day 8 or whatever it is. Its been a sharp cut down from 30+ a day however its day 5 of champix and ive decided enoughs enough. I had rolling tobacco in the house, loads of packets of rizzla, filters etc and a load of of other NRT stuff from previous quits, put them in an envelope and was going to send them to my brother as there was probably about 30 quids worth of stuff there. Realised that i couldnt find his address and couldnt wait to have it out of the house any longer so i just walked down the street and found the nearest bin. I realised yesterday that there were lots of mental battles that need not have happened and i was only torturing myself my having that stuff in the house. It felt good to bin it. The old triggers are really still cemented in my psyche though as as soon as i felt good about binning all the smoking stuff, i felt the over whelming urge to light up! I did laugh to myself and carried on walking thank goodness.
Must be years of associating celebration with smoking.
The other thing that worried me is that all the ciggies over the last couple of days have been tasting horrible but that last one I smoked felt pretty good. I told myself it was just b*llsh*t and it was the nicotines last attempt to fool me, but that is troubling me a bit. It made me wonder if I really want it enough this time.
Still felt good going to bed last night knowing that by the time id wake up it would have been a good 12 hours since my last cigarrette and that mentally and physically the hard work i'd already put in and the preperation since sunday was standing me in the best stead i've ever been in to quit.
Wish me luck,