I'm having a really bad day...
My leg is killing me, really hurting. I'm bored, seriously bored - I can really do nothing. It takes all my strength to get upstairs to the loo.
I don't want to eat, my stomach and kidneys hurt from taking outrageously strong painkillers for 10 days.
And for some bizarre reason the thought keeps coming into my head that a fag would fix it all. I know it wouldn't... and I'm not actually craving but to be honest I don't think I have the energy to argue with myself