Hello everyone.
I am around here for 2 months now. I must say, it has been a horrible 2 months. Lots of nightmares, unnecessary operations... But today here I am again, writing to you from Copenhagen. I actually moved despite every negative development regarding my disease.
I would like to start with my diagnosis. I have FSGS, it is not certain if it's primary or secondary. But I don't have any other problems, such as BP or diabetes, so doctors think that it is primary. They want to start immune suppressive medications, but my diagnosis came just one day before my flight to Copenhagen. So I have not started my medications yet, but I am planning to start in 1-2 weeks.
I am really in between feeling relieved and scared again. My doctor told me that this is the most aggressive version of kidney disease. He is expecting kidney transplantation in 5 years. You know... I sincerely don't mind the transplantation procedure. But I really (!) hate the attitude. Even though I may develop a problem and need the kidney sooner than I think, I hate the attitude of my doctor. He is a very calm person, but he is like always delivering bad news to me, and he treats me like I am at the last stage.
I hate it. Not being at the last stage, but receiving negativity. I already have lot of negativity I have to handle, I don't need an additional one from my doctor!
That is why I am looking for doctor options here in Copenhagen. If I can't find a doctor here, or the treatment I am expecting, I am considering going back to my country but finding a different doctor who can give me strength.
Also, he told me that if I try to get pregnant right now (my eGFR is around 38), I might need dialysis, since the pregnancy would progress my disease. He advised me to get pregnant after transplantation. He actually believes that I might get transplantation in the close future, so I can try to get pregnant afterward. I am okay with this option, but I only consider if we try to hold on to my kidneys for long then I might get the transplant in my 40s. Then it would be very late to have a child. Well, when I told him this question in my head to my doctor, he told me that he does not think it's gonna be that long before the transplant. Way to be hopeful ha