Its been a real nightmare this week, in my attempt to cut down on sugar it has driven the cravings out of control, I am in complete denial about the extent of my problem. I am ashamed to say that I have been binging in the evenings on Xmas biscuits and chocolate and feeling terrible guilt even before I have stopped eating. I have been hiding the evidence at the bottom of the bin or take it in my coat pocket out of the house to dispose of when I am out and about. I can't stop its like my mind can't stop thinking about it until I eat it and then I can't stop. All biscuits are gone but few chocolates are still around, these are belong to the children so I probably won't touch those, although I have replaced some in previous years.
On the positive side I have been very conscious about my meals, I did major healthy food shopping this week by internet so I couldn't fill the trolley with extra sweet treats. I have granery bread, bran, lots of fresh soups, brown rice and root veg for casseroles in my slow cooker. I have also city down to 1/4 spoon of sugar in tea and considering I have at least 10 cups a day I think this is progress compared to the 1spoon per cup before Xmas.
I have been back into my normal routine this week and am very tired, Fibro makes me exhausted, I thought about going for a little bike ride with my toddler in her trailer on the back but as partner was working from home fell asleep while trying to tidy our bedroom. Might have been a bit ambitious there.
I did however walk at a slow pace from toddler group into town winch was 15 mins there and back.
I am not going to give up though, this coming week I hope to get a new vacuum cleaner delivered and give the stairs a really good going over, try a little bike ride to get more fresh air and try to get my hair cut.
Hoping for a better week, catch up with you all next week x