My newborn son is 9 days old and I initially wanted to breastfeed but he cannot latch on. I have tried different positions etc and had lots of support but I feel it is time to let go.
I can't help but feel guilty because everywhere you look and things you read it is drummed into you that breast is best. But I genuely cannot do it and it is stressing me out.
My husband is supportive and will do whatever I want and we have been giving him formula as a top up to my expressed milk. However I cannot express very much and just the little amount I do express takes a long time.
I guess I just want someone to say 'it's ok' and for me to know I am not going to be doing my son some irreversible damage by not giving him breast milk. He has had breast milk every day since he was born just not exclusively.
He is much much more content now he is getting enough sustenance. When he was three days old we had to take him back to hospital as he was jaundiced and lost a lot of weight. Thankfully he did not reach the treatment threshold and the paediatrician was supportive of expressing breast milk and top up formula. They did NOT pressure me into breast feeding (unlike the midwives on the ward in hospital).
Sorry for the ramble but tiredness and new mum Blues are making this period quite difficult when all I want to do is enjoy my beautiful baby boy. We waited so long after tttc for 4 years and ivf ... He was even 15 days late so it's like we just waited and waited...
I just want the best for him and me...
Any advice or similar experiences would be appreciated so I know I am not alone... X