Hey guys. Just me again, need a good rant...again!
So if youve read my previous post '20 weeks and feeling really down' Youll know that my ex ( the father of my baby boy due in december) decided cocaine was more important than me and his unborn child so I left him.
Well I have now found out hes turned to ectasy aswell!!
He has said he wants nothing to do with our baby in the past but I thought he was just angry. But now I keep finding out new things like this and it makes my blood boil!
When my little boy is here and is older how do I explain to him that his dad didnt want to know and hasnt been around because drugs come first! My heart is breaking for my little boy as every child needs a mummy and daddy but he wont have both
My partner is more than happy too raise my son as his own as he also has a son from a previous relationship but my son wont call him dad just as his wont call me mum.
Im just so upset that one day ill have to say to my precious little boy that his biological 'dad' is the drugged up mess we ignore. I want my boy to be proud of his parents. Not ashamed. But there isnt anything I can do!
Sorry for the rant guys! Thanks for reading x