The secrets of pain: My Truth. Please can i just dump this here...

[Staywildmoonchild]

The secrets of pain: My Truth.

Everything echoes in the night as pain reverberates within me.

Muscles twitch and spark like lightening striking jumping beans in a shallow puddle.

Muscles crawl under the skin like foraging ants.

Spasms clench, grasp and tether me like a tangled knot of sinued threads of old weathered rope.

Head fizzes like a bath bomb dropped into a couldron of confusion.

Memory loss taunts me like cruel playground games.

Joints of over tightened threads unwilling to budge.

Numb legs that resemble a million nettle stings.

Hands that reach with uncoordinated purpose.

Depression imbeded in me like a burnt stain.

Searching aimlessly for the simplest of words through a vast open moorland of fog.

A ceased engine thats been stood in a disregarded graveyard of the mechanical dead.

Not meamt to sound pitiful, I just wanted to offer another insight into the secrets of pain!

Thank you for reading. Undiagnosed but fighting for change

[Raingrrl]

Very powerful words. Thanks for sharing.

[kdali]

Thank you!

[jorrell]

Wonderfully written as it defines the overwhelming power it holds against you. Depression is quite often made worse through pain and the limitations that pain puts on us.

I have found over the years that describing pain as it's own "entity" limits my ability to fight against the overwhelming monster. For me, I had a change of heart when a person advised me to not think of the pain as a separate beast, but rather accept it as a part of myself. That was a powerful change as it gave me the mental desire/strength to go after my pain one piece / symptom at a time. With the help of my Family and the Doctors, we fought my pain one piece at a time, Now, my pain is a much smaller part of myself.

[Staywildmoonchild in reply to jorrell]

I completely agree. Im a psychotherapist by proffession and teach mindfulness. The acceptance of pain uses a lot less energy than fighting against it.

Understanding how it impacts on other parts of our system, how we accommodate pain, how we work with or against it and ultimately our overall relationship with pain.... opens up the possibilities that pain alone has tried to discourage us from doing.

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