This is not a sprint, no, more of a stroll. A very long stroll, but we have a lot of time to just stroll. Admire our surroundings, learn ourselves, study our illness and how we react to it. We all have time. calm down, centre (center) yourself the is not a sprint, “YOU” are not racing Mr Usain Bolt over one hundred meters. More like one of those long marathons that the skinny africans always seem to win. It does not matter if “YOU” are a newbie (newly diagnosed) or an old timer. Slow down sometimes. It is not possible to cure this disease, even if it is fun to try sometimes. This is our lot in life, I am not sure why or what I did to get it, but it is my\our lot in this life. I would like to let it make me a better, less selfish person. Not to be so greedy, selfish and short tempered with others. I am but human, so I will just try, try my best and be happy with that. That is all that I can do, just try my best.
If “YOU” are anything like me “YOU are far from a perfect example of a chronically disabled person. “YOU” make silly mistakes, “YOU” do really dumb things. This is not bad. it just is. I make no judgement, I just accept it and live through any consequences. This, our Relapsing Remitting (RRms) ms life. I will live it to the best of my ability. It is a very long journey, I am hoping for forty years more at least. I know it is not simple and easy, it has not been so far, but I will do everything I can to not let it be one of total pain and hardship.
If I progress which I am supposed to I will accept it, I will not be happy about it but I will accept it. I will know that I did everything I could do to delay that day and I will be happy with that. What more can I ask of this my RRms life. I choose to experience this for a reason. All I can do is learn from it. Embrace its lessons and make them part of me. Not just physical me but the whole of me, especially the parts that I do not fully comprehend.
There is much more to this condition 7than just a relentless degradation to a cold grave. I prefer to think that there is a point, it makes me feel a little ,better, if there is not I will never know and that us okay. I went through life thinking that there was and that gave me some comfort.
Find what gives “YOU” comfort. Live it and make this long RRms life a good one.
Royce
Live your life as good as you can, be at ease with it and accept it
