The first time I came out as a Clowns Of America International.(C.O.A.I certified)Became a clown because of MS.Woke up one morning not being able to move, said outloud...GOD! What do you want me to do now...?!!!I heard a whisper: quietly......clown....ok, I didn't hear that, I must be nuts, a reaction of medicine or lack of? I eventually crawed to PC looked up area clowns and in 2 weeks was the only class for the year!HE wants me to do this HE will provide.If I fall because of the MS they laugh, I am a story teller, so I taught at a Discovery Center infront of a lot of children and parents for the MS Society to relieve their pain., to answer questions to lay back fear.To initiate understanding.13 years ago....Now today, I need prayer.I have gotten lost.I am this person inside but I feel like I'm dying.Where is this person?Thank you to this group because YOU SAVE LIVES.You help to save mine...THANK YOU
Here is a smile to all those with illnes... - My MSAA Community
Here is a smile to all those with illness or are caregivers.Why they say...the tears of a clown.
Please stay with us. Yes there are tears, but we need somebody to poke fun when we want to cry. Laughter makes us feel better. If I could reach out and hug you I would. Last week I was on the psych floor because I had given up. I've got work to do but now I'm getting the help I need. Find the help you need. After all the years of giving maybe it's time for you to take.
Melanie
jackiesj , I can pray! I know I'll be joined by many here who understand what you're feeling. Will you let us know how you're doing?
jackiesj , agapepilgrim and melack01 please hang in there! People ARE praying for you!!
Juleigh21 for whatever it iscwirth, I understand. I have lost who I was and don't know the person dwelling in my brain. She is a stranger because she doesn't talk, think, respond, react, love like the person I knew for 60 years. Even the part of no longer able to do what I believed the still small voice told me to do after MS disabled me. Twice now that has happened. So all I can do is hold on to my faith that God still knows where I am and my condition every day. Maybe I am to settle for peace, just peace, and hold on, my child. I will add you to my prayer lust, the side that says very confused, lhelp quickly
Just remember that if you made one child smile especially with this horrible disease that Makes you a very special person. Many people hear God speak but never heed his voice. You did and you have blessed many. Just reflect on that when your mind and body tells you different. We are praying for you. Remember When one of us are hurting all of us are hurting. We are here for you. When you're feeling down always look up. God loves you.
Donnie
Doubled51 Wow, Donnie, I know you said you're not a preacher, but your beautiful faith comes through in your communication. Thank you for heeding His voice, opening your heart to being transformed by God's love, and then reflecting that love back on all of us.
God has been so good to me that I can't not praise him when I get a chance. I worked for the devil for a lot of years and I worked hard and all he ever have me was trouble and heart break. So know I work for God and I owe him the same opportunity and greater than the devil. With all the stupid stuff I did for the first 50 years of my life I should have died a long time ago. But God kept me around for some reason so I will carry the cross for him the rest of my days. Without him ms would he driven me nuts. When I was diagnosed I was devastated. I fell into self pity and cried till I couldn't cry anymore. But my faith carried me thru the fog to realize that I was still able to pray and encourage people who are in the same place I am. So I do my best to encourage ms sufferers old and new to lift them up in the hard times and laugh with them in the good times.because of him I can still spread his love goodness and his mercy.
I love you all and God bless.
@Doubled51 Amen. My faith has carried me through this too. I don't know how people do it without it! God bless.
Me either. Have a wonderful weekend my friend. Blessings to you.
Donnie
Recently diagnosed 
I am here to learn how others cope with the everyday living of MS.
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