I imagine this is a word that rings true with most of the people in this community but I'm really feeling it at the moment. I've written about my migraine experience here before but at the moment I'm having a really tough time of it. This past year my migraines have kicked into overdrive. They've always been quite bad - and always a big part of my life but in the last year I don't think I've gone a week without one (or more). Then in May I got made redundant and I thought to myself "Oh my goodness....there is no way I can get another full time job and hide my migraines going through the probation period!" or even if I took the risk and told my new employer I new I would be off sick a lot. SO I made the big bold decision to go self employed and it's been a fantastic decision for me. It's made managing my migraines so much easier - and my work life so much more fulfilling. Sure it means I have to work evenings and weekends sometimes if I've had a particularly bad migraine run - but I don't mind that as I'm doing the work for me and my clients and also know that I am managing to kick ass at a full time job.
The problem is this whole year I've been trying a whole bunch of different things to try and alleviate migraine. Medication played a major part in that - some with awful results some with ok results - but always with terrible side effects that often made life much more complicated.
In the past I've tried lots and lots of other things - all the things the books tell you and the lovely folk at the NMC - acupuncture, massage, reflexology, magnesium supplements etc etc.
So at the moment I'm trying diet. I've kept migraine diaries for years - and food diaries and there has never been an obvious trigger (I've tried cutting those out). So now I'm trying a detox diet - focusing on eating lots of fruit and vegetables, brown rice, pulses etc - and cutting out dairy, gluten, caffeine, sugar and meat. I'm not expecting miracles - but in some ways I really hope it is food related. As rubbish as it would be to not be able to eat dairy at least I'd know - at least I could claim my life back and CHOOSE to have a migraine if I had dairy.
Oh and I counted up all of my migraines from 2012 (probably a stupid idea) and in total had 91!! I also had 134 days where I either had a migraine, headache or felt awful.
I think the worst thing about migraine is that 95% of the time I feel unwell. It's only on those days I wake up and go "Oh I feel amazing!" I realise how most days I feel so rubbish - I might not always have a migraine but migraine is always there in the back of your head waiting to pounce.