Grief doesn't make depression a good companion.

[Senior4merEverything]

The losses have mounted this year.

I've lost my wife, two brothers, a niece, a nephew, and one of my favorite cousins.

All of these happened within the span of the past three months!

The medications I take for depression have never felt helpful to me, so now, I face the future from a position of sadness, and pain. I am afraid to see the next hour because it might bring more crushing news.

Depressed(Major type), and afraid just to hear my phone ring? These two entities don't make for a good life.

I'm not giving up just yet, but depression keeps telling me that I'll never feel better.

Isn't that a kick?

Dammit!

[gajh]

I am so sorry for all of your losses and so sorry that you are suffering.

[Ryanlion]

OMG! You have had a real kicker of trauma. To loose so much of what you love in such a short time is unbelievabley cruel. How you are reacting is perfectly normal. I went through several losses in a year myself ,3 years ago and i lost the will to live but i knew i had to go on. I too was terrified worse would come and that there was no future for me. Trauma causes depression so you cannot believe what your head is saying.My suggestion is engage with a grief counsellor because you have to process all this and cry, rage, whatever you feel in a safe way. Healing is in the act of grieving I cryed a small ocean for 2 years and it still hits me at times.

If you have friends or faith use them for support. You may need to change your anti depressants to ones that work better. You will get better but it can be a long journey. I am still on it but i am getting better and i help myself anyway i can. I wish you well and keep talking to people, company is a great support for me.

[Desperate4Happiness]

I am so sorry for all that you've lost. That seems like such a cruel fate. Your anger and pain are valid as well as your depression.

Try to have your meds adjusted until you find a combination/dosage that helps you feel better. Maybe join a grief-support group?

Wishing you the best and freedom from your grief soon