Having battled daily pain, taking numerous tablets and having extreme tiredness I'm wondering if the tablets work at all. I'm unable to work because of the pain and no spoons. My social life is non existent. I have managed to stay upbeat as that's me telling myself I'm still me. Recently I'm becoming more and more down. Who am I kidding. I'm not me. I'm a new version of the old me. I think I am finally grieving for the me that's gone. The me that Never stopped. Was on the go. Helped everyone. Was out all weekend. Had a busy, professional job. Had a brain. The me that was life and soul not sleeping all day and groaning when I move!. I have sle lupus. Does anyone else feel this way. I feel like I'm going nuts and I know if I stress I will be physically worse.