The C T Scan is Done

[JeanE41]

The c t scan is over and I have the results. The news is mixed. The nodule on the right seems to be stable, but the nodule on the left shows very slow growth. Now I see what the oncologist thinks on Monday. Uncertainty seems to be part of the game.

[SusieJo1948]

Jean I know your worrying I would be too. Have faith and hope your a fighter. I have plenty of hope for you. It will hopefully be ok. I'm here if you need me anytime. Love susie jo

[JeanE41 in reply to SusieJo1948]

Thank you Susiejo.

[rdflynnjr]

I laughed when I first read about scanxiety as a description for the anxiety we have over our ct scans.

Nothing wrong with a bit of levity. I have scanxiety........

Isn't it interesting that we often find humor in the life and death situations we are presently in? I think that is probably healthy.

Rick

[JeanE41 in reply to rdflynnjr]

Yes Rick. Laughter is necessary for us. Without it we'd be a bunch of grumps.

[PegD]

Mixed reviews and uncertainties seem to be part of the process. Sending more positive vibes your way. Please let us know what your doc says.

[JeanE41 in reply to PegD]

Thank you Peg.

[anrean]

Dear Jean, I am so sorry that the scan did not give you definitive answers and you have to wait until Monday to talk to the oncologist. It is nice when everything goes our way and we can feel free, but know that while this is causing anxiety, it is also providing you the best care. Uncertainty means you are getting the best care possible. Breathe, and settle into knowing Monday is not all that far away even though it seems like miles and miles. Praying that all turns out for the best. Please keep us informed. Lauri-Anne

[JeanE41 in reply to anrean]

Thank you Laurie-Anne. Have been sitting on a fence with this for 2 years, so have had to learn patience. That does not come easily to me.

[anrean in reply to JeanE41]

Jean, I know it doesn't come easy! It took me a very long time to learn patience - certainly necessary, wish they had a class on ways to cope with the anxiety. It is so very hard, but my friends and I always start with breathing and working on the responses we can control a bit easier. It still gets me at times, but I've learned after 16 years at this, that I do have some control over it - I just have to use that control. Breathing is one of the first things we can control

[JeanE41 in reply to anrean]

Thank you for the great suggestion. I also find distraction and hobbies very helpful.

[Denzie Moderator Volunteer]

Hi Jean. Sorry this is what it came to. Any chance that the enlargement could be due to having had a cold or chest infection? What about exposure to allergens or chemical fumes? I really hope that it’s something like that. Please do let us know what your oncologist says.

[JeanE41 in reply to Denzie]

The lesion on the left has been slowly but steadily growing for about 2 years. It has the oncologist puzzled because of its behavior. It is positioned right by the aorta, so until it gets big enough to be a good target, needle biopsy is too dangerous. With the right lesion seemingly stable, maybe a liquid biopsy is in order. Will see what his expertise suggests on Monday.

[Mytwins02]

Jean it is uncertain, but you are on top of it. Keep fighting the fight lady. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

[JeanE41 in reply to Mytwins02]

Thank you.

[scifiknitter Blogger]

Jean - Sending my best hopes for what you learn on Monday. Uncertainty is hard to live with, and while you are going to know more soon, you still have to get through the weekend. Time to cast on a new project? Or go on a movie watching spree? Distraction will be your best friend the next few days.

Hugs, Anita

[JeanE41]

Thanks Anita. Have been binge watching Midsomer Murders, a British mystery series as well as other things. Continuing knitting, of course. The best way to stay sane. Have been considering building an ark with a friend with all the rain we have had, but fortunately it seems to have stopped for now.

How are you doing? It's good to see you posting. Any new knitting projects?

Jean

[RuthieNJ]

Thinking positive thoughts fir you

[JeanE41 in reply to RuthieNJ]

Thank you.

[Stillbiking]

I know that feeling of uncertainty. I have a scan due in November. I know cancer has aged me, but I am still here. I pray for a good report for you on Monday. I think you have a great attitude and agree humor is great medicine. Peace be with you.

[JeanE41 in reply to Stillbiking]

Thank you.

[Feelingblessed2013]

Sending positive thoughts and good vibes your way.

[JeanE41 in reply to Feelingblessed2013]

Thank you.

[RRR737]

Yep, the waiting seems the hardest part of all --- will keep you in my prayers.

[JeanE41 in reply to RRR737]

Thank you. See the doc tomorrow. Should know more then.