Reboot, reset

[Headshrink]

I have come to the slow realisation 2 years post abi that my whole life has been reset. I have learned to walk all over and gradually have relearned who i am. This feels like a knowledge of the core of who i was as im not exactly the same as i was before, ie less tolerant, less able to argue efffectively and making adaptations to those changes and other things besides the physical effects of not being able to run, use my left hand etc. Its like ive been reborn into a middle aged mans body who already had a legacy, rebuilding memories, discarding things i no longer want and reengaging with things i do Etc.. I just wondered if anyone else feels similarly about brain injury or had experiences like this?grateful as always for your thoughts?

[Pairofboots]

Hi, I'm glad to see your post. I get exactly what you are talking about. The before, mark I, and after mark ll, the same but different.

I'm glad that you have managed to wrestle at least some of demon's and beat them into submission.

All the best

Ian

[paxo05]

Hi it's a common feeling.

The realisation you have changed and will never return to who you were.

Personally I no longer really celebrate my birthday anymore as I find it hard to relate to that person anymore. Instead I celebrate when I had my rta ( just over a week later).

This is not a morbid thing as i am not really celebrating the accident but more of celebrating the new me, a sort of rebirth.

Finally realising this gives you a sort of freedom to be the new you and a sort of peace of mind.

All the best,

Pax

[Headshrink in reply to paxo05]

Thanks, 'lucky' for me I had my event on my birthday so instead of a planned day on the beach in st tropez, I went for a long stay to intensive care!

[paxo05 in reply to Headshrink]

Not the best birthday present you could have.

[Headshrink in reply to paxo05]

I don't know, i actually think Im better for it most of the time, except when I have to run for a bus!

[crashclown]

Definately can relate.I felt like I left the "old me" at my 2nd accident.This is now the "new me" and new life,new memories,new way of doing things.

[Superwoman2020]

You're not exactly rebuilding memories,more like remembering some aspects of them and making new memories,sometimes I need to be reminded that I can't do some things but that doesn't mean I won't try,i hope you feel the same

[Headshrink in reply to Superwoman2020]

Yes exactly. So reassuring to know im not alone but it is strange startingb your life all over again in some respects

[Superwoman2020]

I had a stroke @ 18, stroke @27 and smh @35,re-learning after each one,is a pain but slowly but surely re-learning

[Superwoman2020]

sub-arachnid hemmorage @ 35 is what I should've put

[SillyPhil]

Hi Headshrink. I've just put a Post on as it's the 23rd Anniversary of my accident today. I still mourn the loss of pre-accident me. I'm a different person since that day. BUT I'm still alive and kicking. It's good to read through Posts on here as it reminds us that we are not alone, we are among fellow Survivors. Take care.