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Why am I good for everyone else, but have no idea where to sort my own stuff out!! 😵

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PTSD, no faith in doctors, I support people, I'm dyslexic so find filling in forms hard, I'm Tec phobe and get confused, which then stresses me, then I get angry!! #Agraphobic , I've been I'll on and off since Feb, doctors keep dismissing me, I've taken a job last year, lower position, to get training to go back up the ladder, manager abused me daily after first week, hardly any training given, h+s not completed, given keys to store, all good on my side, however all information withheld, a review I didn't know anything about, this manager demoted me, to shopfloor. 20 yrs retail, having to work extra to everyone else cos of my dyslexia, that didn't faze me, but since my councilor passed away. 4 yrs ago, everyone treating me lower that s**t, sacked for the first time ever, for being attacked at work, by a lad I looked after with autism, plus another manager, verbally attacking me whilst having a PTSD melt down due to the lad attacking me. Noone looked at statements, union, acas, all just said yes I can see what's happened, to me being sacked. Next I picked myself up, store manager mega, brought sales up, stopped in-store bulling, promoted staff,gave them there worth, area manager disliked me, just wanted me to sort store out. Left then went to a suppervisor roll, 12 weeks training then straight on to management fast track. Well I wrote what had happened, new manager taken over store, interviewed people in front of me, not even asking me to go for it again, so so upset. Tobe treated like a dog, I'm now off work with a condition I had in 2017, doctors laughed in my face saying I was skits, as I've have all the symptoms of a parasite infection, which is really scarry, I have had this now since Feb, I've asked for a refural however the doctor's won't do this to cover the other doctor, however all NHS and information, refure me to doctors, who say I'm stressed. Well yes I'm stressed now, I have resurched and resurched, could do talks, but would anyone listen. I was told after the age of 40 , you become invisible, omg I need help to get some income, need help to just get to see a specialist from tropical dieseaes, my head would be fine if there was justice in this world. So sorry, haven't thought about how badly people have treated me, and I haven't been listened to, taken ceriously, due to them stressing me out to the point ofbreaking , but instead of helping, they carry on as though I'm not there. I know this is against all law, but where to start, I'm on SSP, got all bills to cover, don't know where to turn, should go back to work but infection keeps reopening, feeling lowest I have for years, and do tiered, I sleep 24 hrs up 2 hours, then another 18 hrs sleep. Wake up shattered. Then keep myself up all night, to catch up on jobs, but get shattered due to everything.

Sorry for the rant, it was needed, if anyone out there can help me in any way, the bless you and thank you all x

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So sorry to hear of your problems.I am no expert on any of the things you mention, but really do sympathise with your problems. All I can suggest is that you take just one problem at a time, and try to resolve that.

As for facial problems, and I know this might sound awful to you at he moment, but have you considered bankruptcy, or taking out a trust deed? It does sound drastic, but once you have taken advice about that, you will find it is not nearly as bad as you think.

As to your medical conditions, again one thing at a time.

I find if you try to load Doctors with more than one or two things, they will just come out with, 'if it's no better, come back in six weeks' basically fobbing you off.

I hope you do manage to get a fix on things, and remember, nothing lasts forever, not ecen the bad things.

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Oldbessy, thank you, I've struggle with do much over my life time, this really is a struggle, but I'll never give in and never give up. People around me are better off with my crazyness in there lives. I do Witter, but that's something I always do, since loosing mum, I do tend to go work, food shop and home, get upset, worked up to go out anywhere. Since this virus I've become very Agrophobic. Anti social, as the though of having to socialize is do tiring, works differen, I the customer service women, pull the pallets women, old school, like my mum, she grow up on a farm, then a nurse and bus driver. Always a smile, even when she was scared, upset, frightened. Maybe I should foster myself out, 49 yrs old . Well thank you. Think I need to vent, make space in my head to be calm and think. 🤗❤️

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Hi there. I am no medic, nor an expert in any medical related field.

Based on life experience alone, it seems to me that you're either close to or in what is termed as 'crisis'.

You need to find someone who can help re-balance and anchor you. They cannot solve your problems, only you can do that, but you need to be on a stable platform before you can find out where you need to be - and how to get there.

I've found that many GPs have a long way to go in dealing with people in crisis, and some don't understand that frustration can quickly build when help and/or a diagnosis for a very real issue is not offered. So they send you away with a shrug and sometimes the offer of anti-depressants.

I suggest, if you haven't already, that you look for someone else with professional training who can help you work through distressing issues.

At the moment, your GP is not a good place to start, so it might be best to go to a charity organization, such as MIND.

Here's a web reference: mind.org.uk/information-sup...

MIND may not be the right solution for you, but I think it's as good a place to start as any. They may even be able to help you, in time, get the referrals that you need and help you claim any financial support to which you might be entitled.

Meanwhile, all I can offer is the usual advice to try to keep calm, sit still and breathe deeply often, avoid alcohol (it really does not help), caffeine and the company of people who completely stress you out.

Take things one day at a time.

I wish you peace and some solid support soon.

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Thank you do much Bridget, I have the same advise out yesturday morning to s ladie on ere, then in a mind mess later, I'm trying to keep calm, as with this reinfection, every two weeks, syptoms today are very hard to breathe, and the docs don't do anything, I'll be honest I have to keep as calm as possible or i can't breath, feels like someone just taken everything, I do get scared, as the larva migrate through the whole body, organs, etc some faitel. 4 years ago we got no treatment, even at a+e, it's as if

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