I must admit, I had got proper stressed up about this for weeks but hadn't realised just how stressed I had become.
I feel relieved now because its done and I know there is nothing they can do to help.
It was complex because I have complex brain issues.
Moderate to major brain trauma, PTSD quite bad, memory issues and periods of major dysfunction, confusion, occasional lack of physical co-ordination and problems with cohesive thought processes.
Its nothing my partner and I didn't know already.
I scored in the upper 90 percentile in some things but did really badly in others. I was very surprised to see how my brain just doesn't work in some areas. I did get upset and found it quite hard to keep a lid on it while going into difficult past experiences like my accident. But I think I held it all together quite well.
The consultant was quite upset to hear that I have totally lost trust in other people and I said sorry to him, but that is how I feel. This is why I don't let anyone close to me.
I think anyone who hasn't been through something like a major accident or illness really just cannot understand how it feels. The only people who do are those who have been thought similar themselves. But that's just my feeling.
Does anyone else here have complex brain injury issues?
I've had to postpone my start at Headway because Adult Social Care haven't sorted out my funding and left me with too much paperwork to do in time.
Why do social workers just act like financial loss limiters for the local council? I avoid social workers but I have got to go through them to get to Headway. Still not there yet !