That’s me, not pretty when you write it is it?
Do as I say not as I do!!!!
I post and give advice, one of the latest is on denial. Under the surface I am so much in denial!!!!
The Barons Walk brought it back to me big time. I am so striving to be back to me, the old me.
Don’t get me wrong I can live with the new me, I’m not that far removed from the old me, it’s the physical changes I’m having trouble with.
I may have had similar problems without the brain injury, who knows, I will never know, it just happens to have coincided.
The biggest problem I’ve got, and I will have had it anyway, is, I’m 65. Everywhere we are bombarded with how we must safeguard our health for the future, the implication is it’s all downhill from now on. And that’s without brain injury.
My problem is , I think, the brain injury exacerbated the problem. The ageing happened at a pace. I wasn’t ready for it, it happened almost overnight.
Self analysis, I’m renowned for it, my counsellor said I’d already done her work for her!, I’d already thought it all out. Doesn’t help really because I want someone to fix it for me. I’m going to be disappointed aren’t I? It can’t be fixed, well it can by me accepting things.
I have a little to grasp onto, after my last appointment with the neurologist I’ve thought my questions and his answers through and my biggest problem is my posture I think. I’m fine lying down, it’s when I have to raise and hold my head up, hence why the pregabalin works. It’s all to do with that now, maybe I need a chiropractor to look at the alignment of my spine and in particular my neck. That’s my next pursuit of the Holy Grail.
Enough of these ramblings though, you don’t need all this. I. Off now to wash clothes and iron, and do the garden, try to bring myself back to earth.
Thanks for “listening”.