Sorry I've not been online for a while. It will be 2 years at the beginning of Dec since my collapse with SAH. I am doing well, I can see that and acknowledge that. The issue is my relationship. I walk on my own can get on the bus although I lack a lot of confidence. I finally have accepted I won't work again, the job I did was to fast pace and emotional and I would not be able to keep up. My husband and I are thinking of moving, he finally want to return to where he was brought up. A part of me is anxious that I
don't want to be isolated. I am also worried that now it feels like we are just 2 adults sharing a house. He says he loves me and I love him, but physically there is no closeness, there has not been for some time. I don't know if this is just to be expected and its a phase we are passing though. Will it get better. I miss him terribly and need and want the reassurance that things will be ok again. He can't give me that at the moment. I feel very lost and very alone at the moment. I would welcome any advice. I probably sound very ungrateful, but honestly Im not I am totally grateful to him for all he has and is doing. I look forward to our life together. I just want to know that the physical side of things will return or is that it now. Any help/advice greatly appreciated. I so much want to move on and have a positive life and enjoy our life together. I miss the physical side of things. Is this normal for the situation we are in or is this not unusual for some males. Will this improve, I ask and at the same time I know no one can really answer me. I guess Im just looking for some kind of guidance with regards to the impact on relationships. Does it improve. I feel very alone most of the time. I want not to feel like this and hope the move will bring us back together and closer. Any thoughts greatly appreciated.