I am talking about my mum how I will never get over it

[eddstjohnoneday]

but I did like Diana .

[cat3]

After my mum died and Bereavement counselling was suggested, I poo-pooed the idea. I knew I just needed to go through the bereavement process like everyone else has to. But when the panic attacks started to rule my life I decided to give the counselling a try.

It had haunted me that when my mum's heart attack started she was phoning me..........and I wasn't available. By the time my aunt tracked me down it was too late.

But after a year of weekly sessions with a counsellor I saw how the therapist said very little, whilst I was doing all the talking, and v-e-r-y gradually analysing the issue to the point where I no longer felt the dreadful guilt.

No one else had the power to 'absolve' me ; the words of forgiveness and reason had to come from my own mouth.

Does this make any sense to you Eddie ? ..........and I wonder whether you've tried counselling to help with coming to terms with the loss of your dear mum ? Cat xx

[eddstjohnoneday in reply to cat3]

thx cat I always thought it was me but when I read Diana sons words after all these years I no how they feel ive checked its 4 years now and I believe that my mum is always giving me the thought of how we deal with it. im really sorry cat for your loss ,

really am love x but that what makes us special .and life is a constant learning process,

I found even your sad loss comforting in a way like my mum would of said to me,

look at your friend eddie you cat . she's always got so many beautiful words to say,

and means it .eddie that's how I deal with it love angels like you cat . always there for me thx cat love eddie xx

[cat3 in reply to eddstjohnoneday]

Thank you for your kind words Eddie.....

Love Cat xx