Brian's 7th Birthday

It is Brian's 7th birthday tomorrow. (I mistyped 'brain' so often in the early days, I decided to call him 'Brian' to distinguish his behaviour from the old me.). I shall try to make it a day of taking stock, of celebrating how far I've come, but it is, as ever, still tinged with sadness at what I have lost. 'Tinged'? 'Sadness'? Maybe that's progress in itself. 'Riddled' and 'rage' would have been more appropriate, even last year. Actually, the truth is somewhere in between. I still mourn V1 and I still haven't accepted V2, of either my 'self' or my life. But this anniversary is a good time to look back and see how far I've come. Not that anyone understands any of this! I look and sound so like a neurotypical that nobody cuts me any slack. And I still do need some cutting. Maybe I should cut myself some!

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My 'versary is coming up too... can hardly believe it will be 8 years. Maybe we should do lunch - you , me and the two Brians ;)

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Yes! Let's! Let's co-ordinate via email. x

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOTH YOU & BRIAN. YES YOU SHOULD CUT YOURSELF SOME SLACK. I FIND ANNIVERSARIES CAN BE A TIME FOR CELEBRATION OF HOW FAR WE'VE COME BUT THEY CAN ALSO BE A BIT OF A REMDER OF TIMES PRE-BI.

MINE IS 14TH NOVEMBER AT 2PM. IT WAS IN 1997 SO I MUST HAVE COME A LONG WAY SINCE THEN.

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Thank you! I am going to celebrate this morning with a pedicure. Then am going to forget about it as doing a shoot will remove all that is non-shoot from my mind!

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Well done. I appreciate what you're saying about V1 and V2. I often feel that way! Like you say, we can only look back now and see how far we've come!

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Thank you. Sometimes it feels less like v1 vs v2 (as v2 is supposed to be an improvement, generally!) and more like a failed hard-drive that somehow the local computer repair shop managed to get working again, but not fully functional and with new quirks. But still, we are all still here! (Even if I'm not 'all there'!) Ha, I made a TBI joke.

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Very clever and funny. Well done x

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WHAT SORT OF SHOOT? SOUNDS INTRIGUING

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I was photographing rehearsals of a production that will be performed in Edinburgh as part of the International Festival. It was exhausting but fun.

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Oh, and my toenails are now bright pink!

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SOUNDS EXCITING ALL ROUND!!

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I hope Brian had a happy birthday. it's good to know that I'm not the only one who celebrates my anniversary - not the accident, but having survived it, even with lots of problems.

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