1st year of accident onwards

[MICH451]

no flash backs memory not good, concentration was shocking acting strange. couldn't make wasn't in the right frame of mind coudnt make decisions in between everything . extr Wasn't aware of my problems although this lasted a number of years and my long term memory started to improve and remember most things later on. cant follow things through. tried doing a job in a call centre struggled with that and I am use to be able to organized and think and adapt quickly. As I use to convert money forieghn currency and worked in bosnia as a lance corporal. And had some intense training which made me a stronger person. now I am the opposite. I get very frustrated as I use to have so much energy. even before accident use to be daring.. ect. at least I got a medal for something before my head injury. tried doing courses and I struggled, and one I just after about a year I was getting awful flashbacks of seeing broken glass and my head goi ng through the mini bus window. and the people on the bus who left me, and

having to run across the motorway for fear of the mini bus exsploding due to smell of petrol. good job wasn't rush hour I wouldn't of been alive would have got knocked down. and then I passed out. two lorry drivers stopped and brought me around. transferred to grantham washed my back full of glass and then onto Nottingham as had a large cuts from forehead going round to my ear and one above eyebrow. and I was complaining of being freezing cold.were my head was cut my right eye brow was hanging over. why did my work mates leave me on the bus and wouldn't come near me. found out they said they could see my skull. I have bad circulation to parts of the brain.

[hayabusa]

Hi LOUISE45,

How many years since the accident? I still go over mine every few days and that was 13 years ago.

Its like being locked in time?

I am being diagnosed for head and spinal injuries for the first time post accident.

Its a bit of an emotional one atm.

Have you thought about PTSD or has anyone suggested you might be suffering with it?

Some classic symptoms you are describing there.

[MICH451 in reply to hayabusa]

13 YEARS AGO FEELS LIKE YESTERDAY I AM GLAD THEY ARE FINALLY SORTING XRAYS OUT FOR YOU THATS GOOD. WISH I COULD GET SOME SORTED , I AM NOT SURE ABOUT MAYBE PTSD IS PART OF IT BUT THERE IS ALSO THE PHYSICAL PART I HAVE NEVER GOT SORTED. AND HAD TO TAKE PAINKIILERS FOR MANY YEARS. AND YES IT IS LIKE BEEN LOCKED IN TIME. DONT KNOW WHERE TIME AS GONE.WELL HOPE EVERYTHING GOES OK FOR YOU LET ME KNOW HOW YOU GET ON. TRY AND THINK OF SOMETHING NICE AND BLOT IT OUT. I TRY TO DOESNT ALWAYS WORK THOUGH, SOMETIMES. YOU TAKE CARE X

[MICH451 in reply to MICH451]

no one has contacted me about xrays. nothing or about trauma service doctor said he would send prescription nothing. so there is nothing I can do except wonder why.

[MICH451]

ACTUALLY IT WAS 13 YEARS AGO MY ACCIDENT DONT KNOW WHY I KEEP THINKING ITS 14 YEARS.